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OLIVER MOORE
TUESDAY, 21ST OCTOBER 2008
19:50
decisions

I'm thinking of asking for a transfer to Sheffield Hallam. I can't stand not being on good terms with Lilly; she's been my best friend for as long as I can remember but I can't make it up to her when she's over there and I'm over here.

So I'm seriously thinking about trying to move; I'll be able to make the most out of my third year, and I'll be able to try and prove to Lilly that I'm not the bastard she thinks I've turned into. It's going to be a lot harder to try and persuade Josh, who rightfully thinks I'm a complete twat for what I've done to Lilly. He's so into her, and I don't blame him, but I feel a bit bitter about that too.

So, here goes.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
TUESDAY, 21ST OCTOBER 2008
17:28
UNTITLED

im trying to get lil out with us this evening but its just not working - shes not budging!!!!!!! we always go to the pub on a tuesday, its a little tradition thing weve had going on for three years now, but she doesnt want to go and i know why...

...she got flowers!!!!!!!! and she doesnt know who theyre from. and shes scared of bumping into josh at the pub because shes totalllllly smitten with him but cant have him yadda yadda. and shes scared of bumping into eoghain cos hes obviously into her but shes into josh.
ohhh, the dilemmas of being a 5'11" skinny blonde!!!...

xoxoxo

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JOSH BAKER
TUESDAY, 21ST OCTOBER 2008
14:11
studious...

I've finally finished the first draft of my law essay and it feels pretty good to have something written down, ready to work on. I'm glad I've got this to stress about so I don't stress too much about everything else that's going on. Haven't heard from Lilly, and Lauren hasn't said anything to Jordon about the situation. I think they're all purposely keeping Lilly's feelings underwraps so that it all calms down and doesn't get any worse. I guess the worst thing would be giving Summer something to feed on.

I'm trying not to think too much about what could be happening between Lilly and Eoghain. I'm just gonna let everything calm down and hopefully nothing else will go wrong, and me and Lilly will be able to sit down and talk about everything. After all, we are going to a ball together next month, and it looks like no matter how much she tries to get out of it, she can't. She has to go with me.

I might go home this weekend, try and get a bit of peace and quiet, and I miss Mikey so I'm probably gonna go and hang out with him for the weekend, see where I can take it. So much has happened in such a short amount of time and I need to concentrate on uni but I just want to get away from it all. But before I go home I want to see Lilly.

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LILLY JENSON
TUESDAY, 21ST OCTOBER 2008
12:40
LJ on ... surprises

I've just had a phone call from the manager of this place saying there was a parcel downstairs for me... so I went to collect it and it's a big bouquet of roses. They're gorgeous, but there was no name or message on them so I don't know who they're from.

If they're from Eoghain I would be flattered, if they are from Josh I would go and see him and if they're from Ollie...?

Who knows.

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LILLY JENSON
MONDAY, 20TH OCTOBER 2008
23:11
LILLY ON ... BEING BORING

All the girls are dressed up, very drunk and ready to go out for the student night but I'm just not up for it tonight. I'm in my jamas in bed with my laptop and Pretty in Pink to watch. I just feel so fed up from Saturday and if I bump into anyone I know I'll get upset.

Rebecca's gone home and I miss her already even though she annoys me sometimes. When Ollie left earlier I got a bit mad with her and yelled at her about bringing him around, and she got quite upset and said she thought we were best friends, and pointed out that we had been since we were babies. I just nodded; I couldn't bring myself to tell her what happened, and she's 17 she can make up her own mind about what she does and who she sees, I just told her to be careful. But secretly inside if he tries to even touch her again I'm going to make his life not worth living. Imagine what he can do to a naive 17 year old? And that sounds awful because I really do love him dearly but I don't know him any more, and that's the saddest part. I could forgive him tomorrow if there was a glimpse of my old Ollie in his eyes but there's not. He's changed and I don't know what's wrong with him but I've got a feeling that things can't get back to normal.
Come to think of it, I'm quite lonely. I'm sick of the arguing and sick of falling out with people, but I don't know when it's going to end.

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JOSH BAKER
MONDAY, 20TH OCTOBER 2008
20:49
bored...

I've been working on my law essay pretty much all day, but it's boring and I'm in loads of pain with my ribs from the fight last night. Looking back now I'm glad I did it to protect Lilly but on the other hand it was pretty stupid because I've got to try and let them mind as soon as possible so I can get stuck into this training programme.

Got another letter from them today explaining that I'll get paid their usual wage for training with them, which is pretty cool. I hate not having a job over at uni and hate relying on my monthly funding for everything, so I'm pretty chuffed to be getting my own money to spend.

It's coming up to Christmas and hopefully after all these essays are out of the way it'll be a really good one. Can't wait.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
MONDAY, 20TH OCTOBER 2008
16:10
UNTITLED

me and tam have just got back from lectures and everyones talking about lil!!!!!! i would say i dont know where its come from, but one guess!!!! stupid cow!!!!

so now theres rumours going around that lils sleeping with both eoghain and josh and that shes really enjoying having the pick of whichever guy she wants!!!! which is so not true and ive put a stop to it today by telling everyone the real truth - that lil and eoghain are just friends, lil and josh are well lil and josh, and summer is the hussy by turning up, turning up ALONE being a main point here, and throwing herself at josh like a little tramp!!

i love giving people something else to talk about!!!

xoxoxo

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SUMMER FRANCIS-SMITH
MONDAY, 20TH OCTOBER 2008
10:29
UNTITLED

Argggh Summer is not happy right now! Here I am, going ALONE to Josh's party on Saturday, and I get absolutely no attention at all!

The best thing that happened was Lilly walking in on me and Josh having a little moment! But not even that could knock her off her spot as I heard she slept over that night, the silly hussy....

So, seems as she's not daring to put a foot out of place, I guess the next best thing I can do is pretend that she has...

SFS xxx

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LILLY JENSON
MONDAY, 20TH OCTOBER 2008
10:20
LILLY ON ... THINKING STRAIGHT

Okay so this whole thing with Eoghain.

It's not happening.

I have far too much on my mind right now, with Josh and Summer and Ollie and Rebecca, I can't bring Eoghain into the equation too. It's really flattering that he likes me and another day and time I may like him too but I know where my mind lies and it's not with him.

I'm going to get loads of work done this week, shy away from the rumours and gossip and hopefully by next week everything will be a little quieter.

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OLIVER MOORE
SUNDAY, 19TH OCTOBER 2008
19:47
the morning after

Lil hasn't come out of her room since she came home about 3 this afternoon. And I know I shouldn't be but I'm at her flat hanging out with Rebecca. I had nowhere to go last night so she brought me back with her and cleaned up my cuts from Josh punching me. Me and him are so not cool at the minute and I don't know how I'm gona sort it out. Maybe it's not fixable.
I shouldn't have kissed Rebecca last night but it's the nearest I can get to Lilly.

And that's really bad.

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LILLY JENSON
SUNDAY, 19TH OCTOBER 2008
15:30
LJ ON ...

Me and Josh aren't talking. I stayed over last night because I couldn't get home and this morning was the most awkward thing ever. I can't believe I slapped him last night when he kissed me - I like him so much I wanted him to kiss me and then I slapped him? Such a stupid idiot.

He told me how much he liked me and everything... he said he was crazy about me. But this was two minutes after I saw him with Summer's arms wrapped around his neck. She was whispering in his ear and pressing herself against him and argh I was so upset. But after thinking about it this morning I've realised that he was probably telling the truth and Summer just threw herself on him. It wouldn't surprise me.

But it's too late now because things are ruined between us. The party was so good but after that argument things just changed. Eoghain kissed me, although that's a totally different matter. Will come to it later. Josh went upstairs and I followed him to apologise for slapping him, and we caught Ollie and Rebecca making out in his room. I'm so disappointed in Ollie, I can't believe he would do something like that after everything that's happened between us. And Rebecca's naive but I don't know what made her go for Ollie, he's not even her type and she's never showed an interest in him.

Ollie got really horrible and it turned into a bit of a fight between him and Josh. Ollie even went to hit Josh with me in the way at one point and Josh did well to get me out of the way, even if it did mean throwing me on the floor.

I went downstairs afterwards to find Eoghain but he had gone home so I asked Josh if I could stay over. Things were sooo awkward between us, it was horrible, but I must have fell asleep really quickly, and I woke up really late today and things were even more horrible, Josh was being really cold and I didn't know what to say to him but eventually I apologised to him for the argument we had. And you know what he said? That I shouldn't have listened to anything he said, because he was drunk.

I'm gutted about that, and I don't know why he said it but he did.

I came home and Ollie is here. I don't know what the hell Rebecca's playing at, but I just haven't got the energy to talk to either of them, I don't even want to look at Ollie so I've just come straight into my room.

I'm going to think about things and see what I want from everything. I really want to go home but it's Monday tomorrow and I've got uni work to do. I think I'm going to throw myself into that until things calm down and then try and talk things through with Josh.

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JOSH BAKER
SUNDAY, 19TH OCTOBER 2008
14:26
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Lilly's only just woke up and she's not talking to me. Well, she said morning, after I said morning, but she just looked really upset and then realised where she was and went to get straight out of bed but I told her there was no hurry. Then she kind of looked at me before pulling the covers shyly over herself and I told her not to worry, I slept on the floor. She looked at me guiltily and I did say it pretty harshly to be honest. I'm just really pissed off about it all.

So then I was just pretending to mess around on the computer just so I didn't have to look at her, cos I knew I would just say something stupid again. She apologised for slapping me and I just shrugged. She asked if I had any clothes she could wear and I got some jeans and a hoodie out of my wardrobe for her. She looked at me when I handed them to her and patted the bed for me to sit down next to her and I hesitated but then sat down. She put her hand on my arm and thanked me for 'everything'. I looked at her and eventually she elaborated and said thanks for dealing with Ollie last night, and thanks for letting her stay. She apologised for making me sleep on the floor, but I told her I slept in the spare room, I just said that to make her feel bad. She actually laughed and I smiled at her, and then realised how close to her I was sitting. She started to talk about what went on between us last night but I just told her not to worry about it, and that I was drunk and she shouldn't take anything I said seriously. She actually looked a little disappointed, and I shouldn't have said it cos it's the furthest away from the truth, but now that she's obviously with Eoghain...

Eventually she left and I don't really know what to do apart from let things calm down and then reassess the whole thing. In the mean time I've got essays to start, ribs to mend, and an old best friend that needs seeing to.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
SUNDAY, 19TH OCTOBER 2008
13:08
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lils still asleep in joshs room and he emerged this morning looking very sorry for himself....... there was a huge fight last night between josh and ollie when ollie was caught making out with rebecca on joshs bed.... how could ollie!!! i cant believe it!!! after all thats happened he goes and does something completely stupid like that!!!!

but josh explained that earlier on in the night he and lil had had a BIG fight she even hit him!!! didnt know lil had it in her!!!! he said he told her how he felt about her but she probably wont remember because she was so drunk, then he made a sly comment about her being too busy eating eoghains face off... not good! he looked totally gutted!!!

so after the fight last night lil must have stayed over and i bet shes quite made up about eoghain but i know how much she wants to be with josh, so i bet shes gonna be pretty sad about what happened between them last night, i know she'll remember cos she likes him so bloody much!!!! im gonna speak to her later...........

the party was really good everyone dressed up and looked totally cool, i bet everyones talking about everything today but i just cant be bothered to go back home, far too comfy here with my perfect jordon and sulky josh!!! hehe

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JOSH BAKER
SUNDAY, 19TH OCTOBER 2008
02:01
fed up...

Can't believe the night has unfolded like this- Why is there always so much drama? Why can't things just run smoothly?

Lilly turned up to the party, and she looked so so so amazing in a Wonder Woman outfit. God she looked hot. And then trailing behind her holding onto her hand when they entered was fucking Eoghain. Who invited him anyway? I know we said they could have a +1 but why did she choose to bring him? So that was a bit of a bummer for me. And to top it all off, he was fucking wearing a fucking Robin costume, just like me. Great.

She didn't notice me for a while, and I was hanging out with the guys trying not to look like I was waiting for her to come over, when she eventually bumped into me in the kitchen. She didn't seem very drunk, and said hi and I said hi and she seemed really happy to see me, which raised my hopes a bit. We had a really nice conversation and she told me how much she loved my costume, and she made me really happy. We went to sit down together but Lilly got stopped on the way and she ended up joining the girls again, dancing with her sister Rebecca in the garden. Rebecca went off dancing with some guy that I didn't recognise, and when I turned around I came face to face with Summer, wearing a cheerleaders outfit. I asked her where her invitation was, and she replied that it must have got lost in the post. She put her arm around my neck whilst she said it, and moved closer to me and argh it made me so mad. I asked her whether she knew it was a superheroes party, and she said I should know that she always liked to stand out from the crowd.

At that exact moment, when Summer was whispering in my ear, Lilly came in to get a drink and stopped still at the sight of us. She looked at me really hurt and then walked off into the bathroom, and I followed her and walked in before she had a chance to lock the door. She told me to get out and I refused. I told her it wasn't what it looked like, but knew she had every reason not to believe me. She told me that she was glad it was confirmed that she had made the right choice in breaking it off with me. I tried to explain that I had just bumped into her but Lilly didn't believe me, and said she knew she would always be second best to Summer. Which is not true, and I told her, but it was all in vain. So I just pretty much came out with it. I told her how much I liked her, how crazy I was about her, how gorgeous she always looked and how shit I felt not being able to get close to her. She told me she couldn't listen to it any more, and she was happy to be my friend when things calmed down but for now she just didn't want to talk to me, not when it was clear that Summer was still so involved in my life. I tried telling her it honestly wasn't what it looked like and that I hadn't seen Summer since that night, and it was Lilly I wanted not Summer, but she went to walk out. And so I grabbed her and kissed her, and she pushed me away from her and slapped me. She was so upset, that she actually slapped me. And then walked out.

I walked out to follow her but couldn't see her, and walked into the garden for some fresh air. I sat down on the bench for a while to think things through, and then looked across the garden and saw Lilly and Eoghain talking. She looked upset and he took her hand and they talked for a while longer, then he put his hand to her face and kissed her. And she kissed him back. And I'm gutted.

I stormed off to my room for some quiet drunken time, and Lilly must have followed me cos I heard her call my name when I was going upstairs. I don't think she knows that I saw. Anyway I ignored her and walked into my room, and two people were making out on my bed. I was pissed off enough already and when I asked them what the hell they were doing, I heard Lilly walk into the room at the same time as they took their masks off, and there was Ollie and Rebecca. And I just went skitz, I grabbed Ollie off of the bed and threw him onto the floor. I was just so mad but Lilly jumped in front of me before I had chance to do anything stupid. She looked at me with her big blue eyes and took my arms and told me that she would deal with this. There was something about her that calmed me down and I actually waited whilst Lilly yelled at Ollie for taking advantage of her little sister. Rebecca played the "i'm old enough to know what i'm doing" card but Lilly told her this was serious and she didn't understand the situation. Ollie did know the situation though and I can't believe how stupid he was being. He started yelling back at her and she started to get upset, and by some of the words used I think Rebecca clicked on that something bad had happened between them. Lilly told Rebecca to go downstairs and then Ollie started to get nasty, and I told him to shut it but he started calling Lilly a slut, saying that she was flitting from him to me to Eoghain whenever she felt like it. I swear I couldn't keep back any longer and I just smacked him one and he fell to the floor again. He got up and went for me and I had to practically throw Lilly out of the way else he would have hit her. I've never seen him act so psycho before, and I know it scared the shit out of Lilly. Some of the guys burst into the room after hearing the commotion and we shoved Ollie out of the room and they said they'd throw him out. I was so mad. I went back into my room and Lilly was sitting where she had landed on the floor, her knees pulled up to her chest. I walked over to her and she looked up at me with her sad face and I took her hands and pulled her up. She staggered a little into me, she was pretty drunk, and then we just stood and looked at each other, not really knowing what to say. And it was pretty much the most awkward thing ever. I sat down on my bed and she didn't even say anything, after a while she just left.

Then she came back, and said Eoghain had gone home and she wondered if she could stay over. God I like her so, so much and I know she likes me too, and I regret sleeping with Summer so much cos it's completely screwed things up. She pretty much fell asleep in my bed five minutes after lying down, hardly saying a word to me. So now she's fast asleep in one half of my bed in her Wonder Woman outfit, and tomorrow morning is going to be hell for her. I'm such a complete idiot.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
SATURDAY, 18TH OCTOBER 2008
19:03
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ooooooooook so this is all a little weird! me and the girls have been on the wine all night, very drunk right now, but ollie has been here all day???? weird. and hes coming to the party?!!!! even more weird. i dont know why hes bothered turning up???? i dont exactly know what to say to him - do i be friendly or do i ignore him or???? i think he knows theres a bit of an atmosphere going on, cos he keeps looking at me with his little cute face like a little puppy, silently begging for me to talk to him!!! i dont know what he expects when he gets to the party - everyone to accept him with open arms????

to be fair they cant really see that its him heheheh!!!

and the other weird thing, lil is not here?????? shes at eoghains flat?!!!! which means hes coming too!!!! so with josh eoghain and ollie all coming theres bound to be drama!!!!

argggh so much drama!!!! anyway were all ready to go and its gonna be a boss of a party but i just have a feeling that things arent really going to run as smooth!!

but really do they ever!!!!

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LILLY JENSON
SATURDAY, 18TH OCTOBER 2008
16:38
LJ ON ... BEING WONDER WOMAN

Okay so Camps' plan worked; she surprised me earlier by presenting me with a wonderful, gorgeous, hand-made Wonder Woman outfit. She went to so much effort to make it, and it fitted so perfectly, and her face was so adorable, that I just couldn't say no. I know she had done it on purpose, but it was so sweet of her, and she said I look so hot in it that I have to go.

And so I'm going. But Eoghain is coming too, to keep me company. And so I'm at his house now, making him a Robin outfit. I'm sure someone else will be going as Robin but we thought it was the best outfit to make, so we're going for it! I've been sewing green fabric all day, and so far he looks really cool.

I really like Eoghain. God why do I fall for all of these nice guys? But he's so great to me, so funny and he has such a cute face, he's completely gorgeous and his accent... ok so I need to stop thinking about guys for at least a day... I know I'm so bad.

But earlier when I was measuring him for his outfit he took his top off and he has the most incredible body. The thing is, that he's not as broad as Josh and he doesn't quite have the eight-pack thing going on yet like Josh does, but god he is ripped! Look at me I'm so lame, I even make myself laugh! Anyway, enough of the school-girl talk.

We're almost finished making his outfit, and I've even eaten lunch today... a whole sandwich. I'm proud, anyway. Tonight is going to be good, I'm determined for it to be! I can't wait to catch up with Josh, but I'm also nervous about seeing him. I get that strange feeling every time I look at him. I hate wanting him, because I know I can't have him because of what he's done. And I'm gutted, but that's the way it has to be.

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JOSH BAKER
SATURDAY, 18TH OCTOBER 2008
13:15
party time...

I love how these parties are a regular thing with our group of friends in Hallam. And to be honest the guys pretty much know how to host a great party. We've got all the drink ready, got the decks out, put the valuables away and cleared up the garden.

And I'm gonna look sweet in this Robin outfit, actually all of us look pretty nifty to be honest. I don't even know who's who, which is kinda cool. And I'm still hoping Lilly will come, actually I'm really nervous about the whole thing. My parents rang me today saying that they've been invited to Lilly's Dad's end of year party; he's the editor of one of the hottest fashion magazines ever, and anyway I have to go too. Apparently so Mum says I've been purposely picked to be Lilly's date for the evening, as her parents 'approve' of our 'relationship' and hope to welcome me more to the family. I don't know what the hell that's about - whether they don't know me and Lilly had a fight, and that me and Corey had a fight, or whether Lilly's told them something I don't know of, which I don't think she has cos she's pretty mad at me right now... so, I dunno, but looks like I'm going next month. And seems as it's a fashion magazine, looks like I need a brand new winter 08 tux. I need to speak to Lilly about it but I need to get tonight out of the way yet. I wonder whether she comes? And if she comes, what she's going to dress up as...

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OLIVER MOORE
SATURDAY, 18TH OCTOBER 2008
12:30
decisions

Rebecca texted me today asking me if I was coming to this party that they're all going to round Josh's house tonight. I didn't know whether she's spoken to the others and she's taking the piss or whether she was genuinely asking if I was going, so I replied saying Josh and Lilly weren't exactly talking to me right now. And she texted back basically saying we should all kiss and make up, and if I dress as a superhero then they won't even know it's me anyway.

So I decided to go over to Sheffield. And Lilly's out, so Rebecca invited me round to get ready at hers. Lilly's at Eoghain's house or something, so the coast is clear and I'm round there, although Rebecca had to get the girls to pinky promise they wouldn't tell Lilly I'm here; she would go absolutely mad if she found out.

I don't even know what I'm doing coming all the way over, but I'm guessing Rebecca's right and I should at least try and apologise to everyone.

So here goes.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
FRIDAY, 17TH OCTOBER 2008
23:10
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weve just got back from the pub and am quite drunk although not eaten anything all day so that could be the reason why!! jordon and josh came to meet us and eoghain was there too and he and lil were stuck in their deep conversation as per usual!! i really think hes taking her mind off josh but i duno if thats a good thing or not? cos josh and lil are soooo meant to be!! but i guess he kinda had his chance and he blew it, so!!!!!!!

im at jordons atm, i feel a bit bad for leaving lil alone although they were still at the pub when we left! im sure eoghain will walk her home!! ive soooo missed jordon im so glad hes here, i love him so much!!! and hes so totally hot!!!

okay so josh just came into our room and he looks really down!!!! hes soooo pining after lil its soooo cute!!!!

anyway powerpuff girls here we come!!!!!!!!

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LILLY JENSON
FRIDAY, 17TH OCTOBER 2008
17:40
LJ ON ... CLEVER PARENTS

Rebecca's hereeeee!! I'm so pleased! Although she's come with a hell of a lot of luggage! Mum, Dad and Corey drove over at noon, and I've just come back from us all having lunch and a good shop. Jesus we bought loads! Corey must have spent at least £2,000 on me, probably because he felt bad for what happened between him and Josh. He had already made up for it though, but knew I was upset with him. And as fickle as it sounds, he does know that I love a new handbag. And he bought me the most beautiful hangbag in the wholeeeee entireeeeeeee universe!!! Ahhh I get butterflies every time I look at it! It's a huuuge blue lambskin tote and ahh it's the most beautiful thing ever! I love it! I'm so spoilt, but can't complain really! Really cheered me up.

I made Camps very jealous with my brand new bag for about half an hour before we all went food shopping together and Dad got us in loads of food. Honestly, he transfers £1,500 to my account every month and then still insists on taking me food shopping; he did it like every month last term. But with Camps he worries that we don't eat; anyway we stocked up on loooads of good food, there's no bad food in sight, which made Camps feel a lot better.

Mum wouldn't stop asking me about Josh, and then Becca joined in too. And I don't know why but I told them that we were good... I just didn't want to go into the whole mess of things... but it was a big mistake because Mum said Dad was throwing another end of year party for Chic and she thinks I should bring Josh. I said he probably wouldn't want to come... and then Dad said he had already been in touch with Josh's parents and they would all love to come. I can't believe it, my parents sometimes!! I think Corey was the only one who clicked on and realised things weren't all that peachy, because he pulled me aside later in the kitchen and asked me if everything was okay. I explained everything and he said that by the look on my face, I really wanted to patch things up with him. And I know he's right.

And so I usually get excited about Dad's mag launch parties like months in advance and I should have known this was coming up but with everything that's happened I forgot all about it. And now it looks like I'm going to it and bringing Josh with me. I do love them, it's the industry I want to go into and absolutely everyone's going to be there, but argh. I'm guessing Josh wouldn't want to come with me.

I've got a few weeks to think about it - it's November 15th, and my parents know that we have reading week that week, so I can't say there's no way we can get down to London. And besides, Dad's already ordered dresses for me and Becca [who like always is trying to find a boyfriend before the day arrives]

However, I've only got a day to think about whether I'm going to 110's party. Argh.

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SUMMER FRANCIS-SMITH
FRIDAY, 17TH OCTOBER 2008
13:02
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Does anyone fancy crashing a fancy dress party?

I know I do...

xxx

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JOSH BAKER
FRIDAY, 17TH OCTOBER 2008
10:32
a good day...

I've got a feeling that today is going to be a good day. I'm gonna go to the fancy dress shop and get myself an outfit, then I'm gonna help buy loads of stuff ready for tomorrow's party. Got a lecture 2-5, then gonna probably stay in and have a few beers with the guys.

I'm pretty happy, had a great night with Lilly last night. Me, Lauren and Jordon went to the pub and saw her there already with that Owen guy again. Okay so that's not how you spell his name, I've been told, because he's Irish but anyway. So we went over and sat with them and things were pretty awkward from my side; all I saw was those two getting on really well and I felt a bit weird about it all. Anyway as soon as Lilly saw me a bit spaced out she came to join me at the bar and we had a really nice conversation.

She sat next to me when we sat down as well so it's obvious that she still does care about me. We had a great chat and I asked her to come to the party tomorrow, I don't know if she will though.

I ended up walking her home and I tried to be really confident but I think it was pretty obvious how I was feeling. She gave me a kiss on my cheek goodbye and I texted her saying night but didn't get a reply.

I'm feeling a lot more positive about us and think we can get on really well as friends first and foremost, and whatever happens after that well that'll be great. Hopefully she'll come to the party tomorrow and we'll get a chance to hang out and maybe I can win her round.

Smiles all round.

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LILLY JENSON
FRIDAY, 17TH OCTOBER 2008
00:12
LJ ON ... GOOD FRIENDS

Just got in from pound a pint at the pub tonight, and I'm all smiles, I've had such a great day!! Coffee with Eoghain was great, it's really nice to have someone neutral to talk to who won't take sides and won't judge me. We just sat and talked for ages, me telling me everything that's happened and then him telling me about coming over from Ireland to study. Oh my God, he is oh-so-cute! He really is. I am really attracted to him but there's so many things going through my head that I can't really concentrate on another guy right now. I've not long been single from Jamie, and then what with everything that happened with Josh...

I didn't exactly tell Eoghain about me and Josh, because I didn't want things to be awkward when we all hung out together. I just said that we were friends, and mainly talked about Jamie and Summer.

I spotted Lauren whilst we were having coffee and her Josh and Jordon came over for a little while to chat. Josh looked really shy and I got butterflies in my stomach when I looked at him. He's completely gorgeous, and he really doesn't know it. I love that about him.

I tried so hard not to make things seem awkward between us, and I think I pulled it off pretty well. But when we went to the pub later on they joined us again and things seemed a bit quiet from Josh's end. It may have been because I was talking to Eoghain a lot, Josh may have felt pushed out. I was trying my hardest to involve him in the conversation, but he didn't really seem interested. I got him alone by the bar and asked him if everything was okay, and he said he was fine, just in a bit of pain with his ribs. I knew he was lying and found the situation between us really awkward, so I stayed at the bar with him for a bit and when we went to sit back down I let Camps shuffle over next to Eoghain and I sat next to Josh. We made small talk for a while, and Josh perked up a little bit. Our gaze held a bit longer than it should have a few times, and I could feel myself blushing but tried to get away with it.

Argh I don't know what to do. I like Josh so much. It's just so hard knowing what he did with Summer. If only he had told her where to shove it, honestly everything could have been working out so great for us right now. I'm really gutted about it, and I knew Camps could tell because she kept looking over.

Josh asked me if I was coming to the party on Saturday and I said I didn't know. He said he'd really like it if I was there, and maybe we could catch up because we haven't seen each other a lot. I'd like that, but I wouldn't want to put a dampener on his night.

Argh. Really don't know what to do.

Camps went straight off to Josh's house with Jordon and Eoghain only lives down the road from them, so Josh walked me home. We walked arm in arm... it was nice. When we got to my door I tried to act as normal as possible but I was really dying to kiss him. I think he was thinking the same, I could tell with the way he was looking at me. But after a bit of small talk I leant up and kissed his cheek and went straight inside, to save us any awkwardness.

I just got a text from him saying night, and want to text back but argh.
Argharghargh.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
THURSDAY, 16TH OCTOBER 2008
17:01
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not good at allllllllllllllllllllllllll!!!!
oops!!!

looks like eoghain likes lil else he wouldnt have asked her to have coffee with him!!! i thought they looked a bit into each other on tuesday night!!!! i mean, i am happy for her but what about josh??????

shes just come home and i asked her what the deal with between her and eoghain and she said they were just friends and he surprised her when he rang her today and asked her out for coffee. i believe her, but then she was pulling on her wooly hat and changing her shoes into her boots and i asked her where she was going and she said she was going to the pub with eoghain!!!! so i dunno what thats all about!!! she told me not to give her one of my looks and i said i thought she was moving pretty quick, and she threw her boot at me. honestly im such a joker!!!!! hehe

i told her we were planning to go pub anyway and were going to ask her to come cos its quids night, and she told me to stop asking as though she was on a date, when we get there i gotta ring her and we're all gonna sit together.

anyway, so theyre friends, so what????????? you just need to tell josh that!!!

xoxoxoxo

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JOSH BAKER
THURSDAY, 16TH OCTOBER 2008
16:50
bummed...

I just went for lunch with Lauren and Jordon cos he's come back over to Sheffield for the weekend, and we spotted Lilly having coffee with that guy I saw her with on Tuesday. Even Lauren looked surprised and said she didn't think Lilly had any plans for today, which made me wonder why she was keeping it a secret from everyone. I felt really gutted to see them so comfortable laughing and chatting away together like they were the other night.

Anyway Lilly looked over and spotted Lauren, so we all went over and Lilly didn't seem awkward at all. She seemed really friendly; obviously she finds it a lot more effortless than me to act friendly... I felt really awkward stood there like an idiot. Lilly and Lauren were chatting away, and then Lilly laughed and blushed and said she was rude for not "introducing my friend..." to me and Jordon... she introduced her friend, who is called Owen, and who seems like a really nice guy. Which kinda makes everything worse... Well, the thing that really does make it worse is that he's obviously Irish cos he speaks with an Irish accent, and girls find that totally irresistable right?

So, we all got chatting away and Lilly looked at me a few times, and I swear I caught her with that look in her eye that she used to give me when we were out on dates together. But I dunno. She just seemed really friendly.

And I feel really shit. When we left, Lauren explained that she'd known Owen for ages, and I think she got a bit carried away as she told me he's such a nice guy and him and Lilly are getting on really well and blah blah yadda yadda. Jordon had to give her a not-so-discreet nudge to shut her up and she looked at me apologetically.

Oh, and to top it all off, when we walked past again an hour later they were still chatting away.

And Lauren said Lilly's not coming to the party. Probably because she's spending the night with her Irish loverboy.

I hate this jealousy bullshit.

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LILLY JENSON
THURSDAY, 16TH OCTOBER 2008
12:20
LJ ON ... YAY!

My sis is coming over!! I'm so excited, I haven't seen her in ages because I've been busy here and she's been at drama school and ahh she's got the end of the week off and she's coming tomorrow for the whole weekend! Me and the girls have been cleaning up all morning and it's going to be fabulous!

I came up with the idea of having a little party here friday night, but the girls chirped up and said they wanted to save their energy and money for Vicar Road's fancy dress on Saturday night. Sigh. And whilst I was on speakphone to Becca the girls said seems as Becca's too young for us to take her out in town, why doesn't she come to the party on Saturday. And before I could interrupt, Rebecca said she'd love to, and got all excited about what she was going to dress up as. Sigh sigh sigh SIGH.

So now I seem like the totally miserable one who's refusing to go to the party. I don't know what to do about it, so I'm just going to forget about it until Saturday comes and then say I haven't got an outfit. And there's no way I'm going to be made to be a Powerpuff Girl. Na-da.

Camps has gone to see Jordon over at Josh's house now, and she asked if I wanted to go to lunch with them. I was tempted, but thought it was best not to. And then it seems like I made the right decision, because I got a call on the flat phone from Camps's friend Eoghain asking me if I wanted to meet him for coffee. I totally forget that I gave him my number when we were hanging out at the pub on Tuesday, and well I'm all ready to meet him at 1. And yes, he's totally delicious, and yes, he's Irish, and mega-mega-cute, but I'm so not going there.

I mean, I am going for coffee. But I'm not going THERE.

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LILLY JENSON
WEDNESDAY, 15TH OCTOBER 2008
22:28
LJ ON ... REFUSING TO JOIN IN THE FUN

There is no possible, possible, possible way on this whole entire earth that I am going to Vicar Road's party on Saturday.

Na-da.
Not happening.

I can't go! It'll upset Josh if I go. He obviously had nothing to do with inviting me, because I'm sure he wouldn't have wanted me to come.

Oh and there's also no way I'm being put into a Powerpuff Girls' costume. The guys at 110 would really love that!! Heartbroken Lilly turns up in a bright pink costume with ginger hair. Put the soundtune on as we walk in...

It sounds like a great party, but I'm just not going, however much Lauren begs me.

Okay so she's just ran into my room, stole my sewing machine and then rang back out. I swear she's got the mental age of a 5 year old! She gets so excited. If she's planning on making me feel guilty by making me a PP girls costume then she's got another thing coming, because I'm stamping my feet on the ground... and not going!

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
WEDNESDAY, 15TH OCTOBER 2008
19:47
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yayyyyyness someone has answered my prayers!!! actually, josh baker has!!! surprise surprise!!!

so anyway, hes having a party!!! and its going to be awesome, were going to dress up as the powerpuff girls! omg yes!!!

ok so lilly technically doesnt know were going yet i dont even think shes seen the invite but if its the last thing i do i am draggign her to this party!!!

which one am i going to be? i can buy a ginger wig? seems as both me and lil are blonde, we cant both be the blonde one!! ohhhhh i hope lils still got her sewing machine, we need to get making outfits right now!!!

and technically i should be doing some reading right now but this is soooo much more important!!! so exciting!!!!

jordon said he might go as mighty mouse, what a hottie!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

LOVE IT!!!
xoxoxoxo

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JOSH BAKER
WEDNESDAY, 15TH OCTOBER 2008
18:30
ps...

Ps - Yes I realise all I ever do on this blog is talk about Lilly Jenson.

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JOSH BAKER
WEDNESDAY, 15TH OCTOBER 2008
18:23
bored...

Pretty much been doing uni work all day. I'm so rubbish at knuckling down and getting it done so I forced myself to start it today, to help keep my mind off of things. Good news is Jordon's back tomorrow for the weekend, and the guys are thinking of throwing a party. They're thinking of having a superheroes theme, and went out to the fancy dress shop today to buy costumes. Phil's gonna be Superman, Ben Batman, Turner is the Hulk and Sam's gonna be Bananaman. They want me to be Robin but I duno if I even want to go, because they've sent an invite to 408 - yep, they've invited Lilly to the party.

Well Jordon wanted Lauren to go, and Sam fancies Hannah, Lilly's flatmate, so I understand they couldn't have invited them and not Lilly, especially as they all get on really well with her. But I'm gonna be stood there looking like a prick dressed as Robin, and she's just gonna laugh at me and think I'm really pathetic. Hardly the attire to try and make her fall in love with me in is it?

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LILLY JENSON
WEDNESDAY, 15TH OCTOBER 2008
12:02
LJ MUST...

Must not think about Josh
Must do fashion story
Must eat
Must not think about Josh
Fashion story.
Fashion story.
Fashion story.
How about the jock style? Floppy hair, baggy jeans, jumper, converse.
?
...Must not think about Josh.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
WEDNESDAY, 15TH OCTOBER 2008
09:05
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oh and ps:// whos hosting the party this weekend???!!! flat 408 need a party to go to!!!!!
xoxoxoxo

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
WEDNESDAY, 15TH OCTOBER 2008
09:01
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dammit i hate waking up early all of the time!!!!! its like my stomach grumbles and wakes me up and i cant get back to sleep and its like argh!

and another argh - josh is so jealous of the people lils hanging out with!!!! you should have seen his face last night!!! not good, not good at all!!!!!

anyway, even better news - about the wonderful *cough* wonderful sfs - shes planning something!!! ahhhh i love it when her bffs get a bit paranoid that theyre going to lose their status if they stick by her!!! so the next best thing to keep them in the loop is to tell me summers secrets!!!

ok so shes planning something to make lil fall, but hasnt come up with a plan yet!hang on a sec - summer doesnt have a plan???? shes losing it, peeps, losing it!!!

xoxoxoxo

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JOSH BAKER
WEDNESDAY, 15TH OCTOBER 2008
01:20
green eyed monster...

Okay so tonight I found out I'm pretty much not ok about what happened between me and Lilly. I went to the pub with the guys because it's pound a pint night, and straight away found myself looking for Lilly. And there she was, sitting in the corner with her legs folded under her, a glass of wine in her hand, deep in conversation with some uber cool guy I've seen Lauren hang out with a lot. He must be on her course. Anyway he and Lilly looked pretty snug, and it made me feel pretty shit.

I know I'm looking into it far too much but I hate it. Whether they're just friends or not is none of my business - nothing even really happened between us and she can date whoever she likes whenever she likes - but I should be that guy. He was really tall and broad with blonde hair - I'm sure I've seen him around before, he might be on the reserve rugby team.

I was so tempted to go over and say hey but I bumped into their friend Tammy at the bar and she said it probably wasn't wise, as Lilly was trying not to think about it. "Oh, and, before you say it, they're just friend. Just hanging out." Was I that obvious? I'm an idiot.

Me and the guys sat down to watch the footy and eventually Lilly looked over. She kind of gave me a little wave but then carried on with her conversation with this guy, laughing and joking with him.

I never ever get jealous as well, so I hate how it feels. I hate knowing that it's awkward between us. But I'm just gonna have to put up with it, aren't I?

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SUMMER FRANCIS-SMITH
TUESDAY, 14TH OCTOBER 2008
15:50
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I'm trying to come up with a master plan to regain control of everything but my mind is just blank!! Why is this not working out??

LJ needs to ruined, I just need her to slip up. I need her to hurt someone real bad.

But she pretends to be so fucking nice!!! I can't stand it; perfect little Jenson.
We'll see about that.

xxx

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LILLY CAMPBELL
TUESDAY, 14TH OCTOBER 2008
14:11
LJ ON ... A SORE HEAD

Why oh why do I do this to myself!! I can't believe I've only just got out of bed, drank myself stupid last night, fortunately wasn't ill and thankfully slept for a long time, but I missed this morning's lecture and I have to go in in an hour to make some bits for my dress. Need to get some breakfast but that's the last thing on my mind right now.

In fact I might just stay in bed all day. Or until forever. Or until graduation, when SFS is gone, never to be returned.

A blissful thought.

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LAUREN CAMBELL
TUESDAY, 14TH OCTOBER 2008
10:30
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i think lil really upset josh last night we went out on the town and for some reason i didnt get very drunk but lil was absolutely wasted and we bumped into josh in the park and lil told him obviously totally oblivious to who he was that he reminded her someone she liked loads
so now josh knows that lil does really like him but he screwed it up and so hes bound to feel even more awful about everything

i might go over and see if hes ok? i duno. i feel bad cos jordons back in cambridge and im sure josh is stuck inside by himself

i do have an essay to start though... and lil wants to go out tonight, burning the candle at both ends hmmm!

xoxoxo

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JOSH BAKER
TUESDAY, 14TH OCTOBER 2008
03:49
random...

Went out for a walk because I was really bored and the guys had gone out. I was going to join then, but knew I'd struggle and get pushed around etc and I need to try and get better as quickly as possible so that I can join the training squads again.

I was sitting on the bench in the park for what seemed like forever, and everyone was stumbling past in their drunken state. And then surprise surprise I saw Lilly and Lauren walking up the path. I didn't say anything, I just watched as they walked by and Lilly didn't look at me but Lauren did. She gave me a friendly smile and didn't seem half as drunk as Lilly was, who was pretty much being propped up by her best friend. Anyway, because Lauren looked at me she lost concentration on Lilly for a second and Lilly went to fall over just as they were passing me. I leaped up and caught her before she tripped, and she giggled and clung onto me before looking up at me, and telling me "you remind me of someone I know, someone I like very very much."

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LILLY JENSON
MONDAY, 13TH OCTOBER 2008
23:00
LJ ON ... DO IT DO IT DO IT

I've had enough... I'm going out, and I'm dragging Camps out with me. I've moped around all day, thinking how much I've screwed up - 48 hours ago Josh and I were basically on the verge of being an item, and now I haven't heard anything from him and I feel awful. I feel bored. Sad.

But stuff it I don't have to stay in and be sad about anything, so I've just slipped on a dress and put on my make up, and we're going to hit the union!!

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MEOW! I never knew Lilly still had it in her! Even through a broken heart her fire is back and I absolutely love it. Someone buy the girl a drink pronto, as I'm sure that's not all she's going to let rip...

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LILLY JENSON
MONDAY, 13TH OCTOBER 2008
15:21
LJ ON ... A SMALL SMILE

Even after all this, after everything Camps, Josh and I have gone through over the past few weeks, it absolutely thrills me to know that now that it's all come to a standstill, everyone hates Summer.

Everyone.Hates.Summer.

They think she's a total and utter whoreface. There's not a word on campus about Josh and I; all the talk is about SFS and how she screwed her social status up, all by herself, with the help or absolutely no-one.

And it's always nice to get one over on the old bitch.

LJ

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
MONDAY, 13TH OCTOBER 2008
13:40
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so jordon just rang me telling me how gutted josh is about whats happened between him and my lil.

so weve come to the conclusion that we should be matchmakers and try our hardest to get them together once and for all!!!!!

i dont think its a good idea right now, and it might really piss lilly on, but itll soooo be worth it in the end!

and all the thanks will go to super camps and super j!!!!

xoxoxoxo

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JOSH BAKER
MONDAY, 13TH OCTOBER 2008
08:23
yawn...

I hate these early Monday morning lectures.

I felt better after getting an early night last night. However, I was up thinking for a while and I've come to the decision that I'm going to leave it for a couple of weeks with Lilly and just be friendly when we bump into each other, yadda yadda.

However, after that I'm going to try my hardest to get her back. Crazy? No. Crazy about Lilly Jenson? Yes.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
MONDAY, 13TH OCTOBER 2008
03:18
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me and lil had a huge chat about everything last night and shes really gutted that it didnt work out with josh. she said she still wants to be friends but i dont know if that will be hard for him??? i personally think he'll try and be friends and i dont see any probs with us all hanging out together

theyre obv still going to see each other now theyre in the same friendship circle [kind of, duno whats going on with ollie atm] and what with her being my bff and josh being jordons brother, theyre gonna have to put up with a few awkward moments when we all go out together - which we will be doing!!!
no excuses allowed from lil!!!

xoxoxo

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OLIVER MOORE
SUNDAY, 12TH OCTOBER 2008
22:30
annoyed

I would usually be the one Lil turned to whenever she was in trouble or felt down. And now I'm reading her blog and seeing how upset she is about everything, and there's nothing I can do to make it better.

And that sucks.

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LILLY JENSON
SUNDAY, 12TH OCTOBER 2008
19:09
LJ ON ...

Josh's Mum threw the perfect party. I loved it. In the end I decided to wear hardly any make up and just have my hair straight, to tone down the dress a little bit. And it seemed to work; Josh couldn't keep his eyes off of me. There were scores of girls there, and I was the only one he looked at.

Which is why I'm so stupid for cooling things off and telling him that we can't get back to how we were. I feel awful; the look on his face made me feel even more awful, and I felt even even more awful because I knew the effort he was going to to try and make things better. But I just can't do it - I look at him and after five seconds of smiling to myself and thinking 'that gorgeous guy can be mine' i suddenly stop and think 'no, he's Summer's, and he's always going to be.' Every time she wants him, she may be able to have him, and I can't live with that.

Everything was so perfect as well. Josh looked uber delish in a white shirt and dark jeans, with his trademark converse on. I liked the way he looked at me; I liked the way his hand fell naturally on the bottom of my back as he introduced me to everyone as 'Lilly', and I love the way he went to the effort to introduce me. I love the way I caught him grinning at his Mum when he thought I wasn't looking, and I loved the way he pulled me onto his lap when we were sat in the corner by ourselves, laced his fingers through mine and openly started a kissing session in front of anyone who was looking. I loved the way he hobbled around trying to look macho. And most of all I loved the taste of his kiss, and his squidgy lips, and how they felt on mine.

This is stupid.

But I just can't do it.

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SUMMER FRANCIS-SMITH
SUNDAY, 12TH OCTOBER 2008
17:49
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Awwwww, poor Joshy!!! By the look on his face when I bumped into him outside campus this morning, things didn't go too well with pretty little Jenson at his pretty little party!!!!

He literally bumped into me - ew, now that he's been tainted with that hussy - and when he realised whoo he had exactly bumped in to he gave me a little sad puppy eyed look.

I don't really get what his problem was, as I was actually doing him a favour by separating him from that skanky little b we like to call Jenson.

xxx

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
SUNDAY, 12TH OCTOBER 2008
13:11
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were homeeee!!! the party was fabulous, god jordon is so scrummy!!! we had such a good night!!! lilly seemed to be having a really good night with josh too but i think she told him how she really feels cos she was really quiet on the way home this morning!

i think shes really upset but trying not to show it!!!! and ive changed my mind - after the way josh was with her last night i think they should be in love and together forever!!!

bit late now eh!!

xoxoxoxo

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JOSH BAKER
SUNDAY, 12TH OCTOBER 2008
10:05
gutted...

I can't believe how smoothly the party went last night. Mum and Dad made a huge effort with the bbq , and everyone had a pretty amazing night. Everyone got on great and all the family were there and Lilly looked absolutely stunningly beautiful, as always.

And then when we finally had alone time together in my room afterwards, just when I was about to tell her how sorry I was for everything and how much of an effort I was prepared to make to get things okay again, she told me that she felt we couldn't go back to how we were. No, she didn't even say that's what she felt. She just told me that we just couldn't go back. As in, it's not happening.

I'm really gutted. I never expected her to forgive me so I should have seen it coming but I was just too involved in making a damn effort to please her. And it was all worth it, really was, cos she looked so stunning last night with her blue dress and blonde hair and hardly any make up. She looked so effortlessly perfect, and if I hadn't have screwed up then last night probably would have been the night I would have asked her out again.

Something really great could have happened between us and I ruined that. I totally get that she wouldn't have been bothered if it had been any one else. It's just with it being Summer...
We had such a great night together, holed up in a corner away from the hustle and bustle. We were cuddling, laughing, and all the time I should have known that she was pretty quiet and uncomfortable not because she felt nervous but because she just couldn't do it.

I asked her if she trusted me. She said she did. I asked her to answer the question. She said if Summer ever does it again how hard would it be for me to resist her. I told her I would always be faithful. She said she couldn't count on that yet.

So that's a no then.

We didn't argue or anything, it was more of a sad conversation. I went outside to get some fresh air and when I got back Lilly was asleep in my chair, and she had been crying. I picked her up - shes so light these days - and put her into my bed before going back outside. Haven't slept much, and I don't really know what to say to Lilly this morning when I see her.

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LILLY JENSON
SATURDAY, 11TH OCTOBER 2008
16:32
LJ ON ... NERVES

Me and Camps went dress shopping today and bought some gorgeous from Topshop, I'm in love with them both!! I've got down to a size 6 too, quite pleased with myself! So effortless!

So anyway I haven't given Josh a definite answer yet as to whether I'm going. And I still feel that I want to pull out, but know that I have to go. I'm driving, so I've got Camps relying on me and Tammy's coming so her as well. I do want to go just argh if I have a drink I'm probably going to end up telling Josh how I feel, and I don't want to ruin his party.

I'm also worried about the impression his family are going to have of me. I adore his brother and spoke to his Mum before but what if everyone starts talking about Summer? Or how much of an idiot my brother is? What if Josh has told them that it's all my fault?? And what if I look too tarty, or not dressed up enough? Argh.

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OLIVER MOORE
SATURDAY, 11TH OCTOBER 2008
12:02
BITTER

Josh is having a party, one that I haven't been invited to.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
SATURDAY, 11TH OCTOBER
10:38
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were going to a parttttyyyyy!!!! and hopefully its gonna be less dramatic than the rest of them!!!!!!

im gonna try my hardest to look after lil i mean i know how upset she is with josh still even though shes going over to see him etc etc so hopefully he will really try and prove himself to her in front of his family and friends....

eeeeeeee i looooove parttttiiessss!! im guessing its lets-go-dress-shopping-time!!!!!!!!!!!!

xxoxoxo

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LILLY JENSON
FRIDAY, 10TH OCTOBER 2008
21:29
LJ ON ... TRYING TO FORGET

Josh called me earlier asking if I wanted to go round if I had nothing to do. I was really surprised that he asked, but he sounded in a really good mood and I found out when I got around there that it's because he got the place on the training squad. I'm really pleased for him, he deserves it.
Anyway, so when he opened the door Josh looked cuter than ever, really tired but really happy to see me. He was hobbling around and looked as though he was in lots of pain but he cooked dinner for us even though I offered. I tried to eat most of it, he's a really good cook, then we hung out in his room for a bit, just talking about things.

Argh I'm so annoyed with myself because he was trying really, really hard. He knew the situation and how upset I am about the whole Summer thing, and he's trying sooo hard but in my head every time I look at him all I can think about is him sleeping with Summer. It's been gnawing at me ever since I found out, and I'm so jealous about it, I can't stand the thought of them being in bed together.

I mean I know that we weren't even properly dating at the time, it was just that stupid week-long thing, him trying to cheer me up, and if he slept with anyone else I really really wouldn't mind, but Summer??? Didn't he realise what he was doing??? I was really hoping that something would work out with us, I really did. And that's my fault, because I shouldn't have pinned my hopes on it, but if something did work out how much would it have taken for him to sleep with her again? I mean we all know what she's like. So if she can seduct him so easily...
Argh. It's doing my head in. And I think he knows how I feel about it, I can see it when he looks at me.

He said he'd really like it if I came to Cambridge with him tomorrow for a celebration party at his house. I really, really want to, but there's just something holding me back. After our dates I thought he was the most trustworthy guy on the whole planet, now I'm not sure. I mean I still hardly know him, it's just the Summer thing really hurts.

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SUMMER FRANCIS SMITH
FRIDAY, 10TH OCTOBER 2008
18:57
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Why when I try to organise a party is there already one happening that everyone is going to? And why is it always hosted by one of the brady bunch?

Not happy!! Summer FS's parties are the best, why does no one see that?

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JOSH BAKER
FRIDAY, 10TH OCTOBER 2008
16:50
CELEBRATIONS...

If I could jump up and down and punch the air, I would. Really happy, just got a letter pushed through the door from the academy saying that after "careful reconsideration" yadda yadda, I got the place on the training scheme!! I'm so pleased, and so is my Dad, he wouldn't stop going on about how we're going to celebrate, even if his perception of Corey Jenson has changed [I quote].
I know it's down to my playing etc that got me the place but it's also pretty much down to Lilly for getting them to change their mind/go with their original decision/etc. I'm really chuffed.

So Dad's planned a small gathering tomorrow night back home to celebrate, so I'm gonna try and arrange a lift and get some of the guys down, it should be pretty good. I'm trying to pluck up the courage to go and ask Lilly, but I'm gonna hate it if she says no.

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My sis is coming over!! I'm so excited, I haven't seen her in ages because I've been busy here and she's been at drama school and ahh she's got the end of the week off and she's coming tomorrow for the whole weekend! Me and the girls have been cleaning up all morning and it's going to be fabulous!

I came up with the idea of having a little party here friday night, but the girls chirped up and said they wanted to save their energy and money for Vicar Road's fancy dress on Saturday night. Sigh. And whilst I was on speakphone to Becca the girls said seems as Becca's too young for us to take her out in town, why doesn't she come to the party on Saturday. And before I could interrupt, Rebecca said she'd love to, and got all excited about what she was going to dress up as. Sigh sigh sigh SIGH.

So now I seem like the totally miserable one who's refusing to go to the party. I don't know what to do about it, so I'm just going to forget about it until Saturday comes and then say I haven't got an outfit. And there's no way I'm going to be made to be a Powerpuff Girl. Na-da.
Camps has gone to see Jordon over at Josh's house now, and she asked if I wanted to go to lunch with them. I was tempted, but thought it was best not to. And then it seems like I made the right decision, because I got a call on the flat phone from Camps's friend Eoghain asking me if I wanted to meet him for coffee. I totally forget that I gave him my number when we were hanging out at the pub on Tuesday, and well I'm all ready to meet him at 1. And yes, he's totally delicious, and yes, he's Irish, and mega-mega-cute, but I'm so not going there.

I mean, I am going for coffee. But I'm not going THERE.
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OLIVER MOORE
FRIDAY, 10TH OCTOBER 2008
14:59
give it up

What is it with this Summer chick? She won't stop texting and calling me; she's done it all day. How the hell did she even get my number? I swear, she always gets what she wants and she's so evil, such a brat. I just hope whatever she's got planned for next time, she's not trying to get me involved in it.

She should give it up.

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LILLY JENSON
FRIDAY, 10TH OCTOBER 2008
10:28
LJ ON ...

I came home this morning for my hour lecture at 9, and sorted things out with Camps. I feel so much better about it now that I know I have her by my side. It was all a misunderstanding - isn't everything?? - and she didn't have anything to do with what happened between Josh and Summer.

Talking of Summer, walked by her on campus on the way to our lecture, and she didn't look best pleased. Especially as my head was held high, my hair freshly blow-dried and my favourite Hermes bag was on my arm. She did look a little worse for wear, and was obviously hoping that I'd turn up to class looking like shit. No such luck, I'm afraid.

Talking of Josh, we still haven't talked because when I woke up this morning I was alone in his bed, all wrapped up in his gorgeous smelling duvet. I went downstairs and he was asleep on the sofa, looking totally uncomfortable, one arm and leg draped off the side of it. He was topless and I saw the big bandage on his stomach - I feel so bad for it. I shouldn't have said anything to my brother, especially as it put Josh's tryouts in jeopardy. But I've spoken to my brother about that and hopefully it's all sorted.

Anyway, so Josh was looking cute as ever, his hair all messed up and his gorgeous body out. Honestly, I wish things could just go back to how they were before last week... but I don't know. He's just so god damn gorgeous, everything about him. His face is pretty cut up and I feel really bad for him, what with him missing time off uni and rugby and how bad he obviously feels about everything. I can remember his blog web address but daren't look on it again; I feel as though I'm snooping. But maybe he's been reading mine all along? Never know.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
FRIDAY, 10TH OCTOBER 2008
08:15
UNTITLED

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY, it's me and lil against the world again!!!!!!!!!!!!

shes just come home and we had a little talk and a big hug and once again, we do rule all!

i love her so much and she loves me, and things are going to be a-ok!
...i hope!

xoxoxoxo

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JOSH BAKER
THURSDAY, 9TH OCTOBER 2008
19:06
surprised...

I can't believe I've been asleep for the whole day. I still feel exhausted, and Lilly must too because she's still here. Which is a good thing. My chest is killing me and so is my face - I bet I look like a right moron. It's my five minute claim to fame anyway.

I managed to get out of bed and put a cover over Lilly, letting her sleep whilst I went downstairs and got some food. The guys have got the football on but I'm on a bit of a downer and not really feeling good about anything at the moment. I'm worried about rugby, and I'm worried about Lilly. I don't know how this is going to pan out for either of us, but even if it comes to the worst I hope we can still be friends.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
THURSDAY, 9TH OCTOBER 2008
15:32
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i wish lil would get in touch!!!! ive rang jordon, and hes not heard anything from josh either!!!

ohmigod, what if theyve ran off together?!?!?

xoxoxoxo

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SUMMER FRANCIS-SMITH
THURSDAY, 9TH OCTOBER 2008
15:19
UNTITLED

Being able to have any guy I want is so much fun! Oliver Moore totally wants me. And both Josh and Lilly Jenson hate him.

So, taking him under my wing isn't such a bad idea.
He isn't going to be resisting my charms for long.

Because, come to think about it, no-one does!

xxx

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OLIVER MOORE
THURSDAY, 9TH OCTOBER 2008
13:28
fool

Yesterday didn't go very well at the hospital. When I finally had the courage to go up there, Summer was already there. Not good. And then Lilly turned up, which just made me feel ten times more shit than I did already. With how much I wanted to talk to her, and knowing that was just not the time or place, it was bad. Summer kicked off and had a go at Lilly and basically we had to leave.

I was a bit gutted at being made to leave cos I know what Lil's like and I know what Josh's like, and they're probably laughing away having made up by now. And yeah I'm jealous but I just didn't want it to happen, not yet. I wanted the chance to speak to Lilly on her own, and speak to Josh on his own. Hopefully they'll still let me have that.

So anyway I found that I didn't have anywhere to go, and Summer offered for me to stay at her place. I was a bit reluctant at first - I fucking hate the bitch - but I didn't have anywhere else to stay. So I went round, and she got us drunk and tried it on with me. I told her to go fuck herself and ended up staying on the sofa.

So now it's gonna get around Hallam that I too have had it off with Summer, which is going to make things even more hell.

Bad times.

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LILLY JENSON
THURSDAY, 9TH OCTOBER 2008
11:57
LJ ON ...

I've just been really bad and done something I shouldn't. Anyway, to that in a minute... I'm round Josh's house. After everything that's happened, I knew I had to go and apologise and I did yesterday, only to be greeted with Summer and Ollie. Seems as neither of them should have really been visiting, I felt really gutted that they were both there, and in a moment of paranoia wondered if they had all hatched a plan to well and truly screw me over. Not the case, at all, but anyway I was even more gutted to hear the nurse call Summer Josh's girlfriend. Then it seemed that Summer had told the nurse that just to get in the good books, and I was surprised when Josh spoke up and told the nurse I was his girlfriend, not Summer. Technically not true, well, not true at all, but anyway...

So then Josh had a big massive go at me about what Corey did to him, which I really didn't blame him for - he's got every right to be mad at him because it's down to me that he didn't get his place in training with my brother, especially as Corey said he had definitely already given it to him. I was just about to turn to leave when Josh called me back, and he was stood there next to me. His eyes were really soft and I knew he felt guilty about anything. I couldn't believe it when he went to kiss me and the nurse interrupted, telling him he could go home. I helped him with his things and we got a cab back to his house. I felt really awkward going in at first, with everything that had happened, but I cooked him some dinner and made sure he was okay, and got the impression he wanted me to stay a while.

Anyway, I ended up telling him about me and Ollie. He asked, and I didn't want to lie to him. It felt good to tell someone about it, someone who I knew would really care - I know Camps is always there for me but sometimes she's too wrapped up in her dream world to really make a difference, bless her. I sat down next to Josh and next thing I know I've woken up this morning in the same place, with Josh asleep next to me and his laptop open on his lap. I took it so I could catch up on things and email tutors telling them I wouldn't be in today, and couldn't help noticing his blog page up. I didn't even know he kept a blog.

So I know it was kind of wrong for me, seems as I guess it is kind of private - well mine is anyway, even though I know some people read it - I read some of his entries. It actually almost made me cry. After reading them I realise how much he cares about me, and how cut up he was about what happened with Summer last week. I think he's still a bit mad at me for doing what I did, and I'm still mad with him for doing what he did, but reading his blog I just... I didn't realise he was such a big softie. He's always this macho, cool guy with a confident smile and good jokes and wonderful charm and when we went out on those dates I got to see him in a better light but even then he still maintained his cool, strong character. It's kind of nice to see that different side to him.

I don't know what's going to happen from now on but hopefully things will start working themselves out. I know I need to go and talk to Camps and sort things out but right now in Josh's room I just feel really safe and welcome, and I like that.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
THURSDAY, 9TH OCTOBER 2008
09:02
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lilly didn't return home last night and she's not answered any of my calls or texts so im really worried about her!!! i know shes not with her brother cos hes rang me a thousand times asking where she is. so that means shes either with josh, or off by herself somewhere both arent really good for her i dont think!!!

i really really do like josh but i dont know, i mean i really want them to get together but if summers going to try her hardest to wreck things then it might not work out and i dont want summer to hurt lil more than she has done already....

apparently they all went to the hospital yesterday and there was a little showdown between sum and lil, and sum was told to leave. josh even said lilly was his gf!!! so i dont know whats going on there but the whole campus seem to think that lil and josh are back together. i might just leave it that way until things are settled down, id rather people think happy families rather than gossiping about fights!!! anyway summer confided in her closest mates about this and they obviously told everyone about it, so thats friendship for you, doesnt seem like summer has anyone she can trust lately!

and whats this about her spreading a rumour that she got with corey jenson? i know im warped, but that girl is seriously WARPED!

xoxo

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JOSH BAKER
WEDNESDAY, 8TH OCTOBER 2008
23:43
...

So I ended up having to go to hospital this morning to get my ribs seen to. Found out two are fractured and I've had to have it all bandaged up and it fucking kills but anyway that's not the point.

I was sat there bored in a hospital bed waiting today, wishing I had some visitors to come and see me, cos I pretty much had enough time on my hands to think about things and that's never good. But I soon changed my mind as soon as Summer walked through the door, all smiles and looking cute with magazines and grapes in her hand, as if I was her boyfriend and had been through a major fucking car crash. She was the last person I wanted to see, I don't know how she found her way up to the ward the oriental bimbo that she is. Anyway she came over and knowing full well that I couldn't move away from her too quickly, planted a kiss on my cheeks before plopping herself down next to me. I asked her what the fuck she was doing here and she said she was coming to look after me. I told her about three times that I wanted her to leave, but well Summer is Summer, she only does what she wants to do...

So I was finally getting used to her being there and having to talk to her, when two minutes later Ollie walks in, again with magazines and his psp in his hand. The other person I last wanted to see. I could tell that he was looking dead hopefully, but his face fell when 1) he saw how angry I looked and 2) when he saw Summer sitting down by my bedside. As usual, Summer went blabbering on making a big fuss of Ollie, saying how awful it was that Lilly had made up such lies about him, and he didn't dare look at me. I butted in and told Summer that it's fully Ollie's fault that he forced himself onto Lilly. Then Summer interrupted and said let's not talk about her today. I could have killed her.

Then the worse thing happened. Lilly walked in. She looked really upset and I knew it would have taken a lot of guts for her to come and see me, and I couldn't stand the way her face fell when she saw Ollie, and then straightaway went pale at the sight of Summer. I felt so awful. It was silent for a bit until Summer stood up and turned to Lilly with her hands on her hips. She suddenly started yelling at Lilly asking her if she could see what she had done to her face, and Lilly didn't even make an effort to fight back. Summer was right up in her face and Ollie had to literally drag her away. The commotion attracted the attention of the nurse and she said everyone had to leave "apart from Mr Baker's girlfriend." We all looked around puzzled but there was Summer standing with her hands on her hips, with a smug smile on her face. So she had obviouslyu told the nurse that she was my fucking girlfriend. Lilly looked like she was the one who had been smacked, and she quickly turned to leave but I finally spoke up and told the nurse that there had been a mix up. And then I did something kinda stupid and said "Summer's not my girlfriend, Lilly is." Lilly looked a bit started, the nurse looked confused, and Summer looked pissed off. But I knew it was the only way the other two would be made to leave and Lilly could stay. Ollie looked majorly pissed off too but I couldn't do much about that. Summer stormed out of the hospital muttering something, and then it was just Lilly stood there and me sat in my bed, an awkward silence between us.

I looked her in the eye and was going to tell her how sorry I was, but then got a bit angry and instead asked her what she was doing here. I felt awful when tears started rolling down her cheeks, and she told me that she was really sorry about her brother and the way she had got me into trouble. I don't know why but I got angry with her and told her that she had ruined my whole chance of getting to train with the Wasps squad, and cos I had fractured bloody ribs I was out for at least six weeks, which would probably cost me my first team place in Hallam. She looked mortified when she realised I hadn't got the part, and she began to say that Corey had said I would definitely get the place. So I told her my point was proven, and look who had gone and ruined it all. I was just frustrated and it came out towards her, even though it wasn't really her fault. She got really upset and said that she had just come to apologise, and could understand how angry I was with her, and that she would leave me alone.

I couldn't stand to leave it how it was so I called her back and she turned around at the door, jumping when she realised I had got up and was standing right in front of her. I moved her hair out of her face and when she looked up at me I couldn't help but lean down to kiss her. But the nurse interrupted us, telling me I was free to go home now, and gave me a crutch to help with my walking. Without saying a word Lilly helped me get all of my things together, and helped me out of the hospital. We got a cab together to my house, and the guys were all out so she offered to come in and cook for me cos I was starving. I got into bed and half an hour later she brought up some great pasta for me to eat, although didn't eat herself. We made small talk but I couldn't stand it any more so I asked her what had happened between her and Ollie. She didn't even look shocked when I asked her. She just quietly started to tell me about what happened. She got really upset and I took her hand at one stage and she sat next to me on my bed. She told me how he forced himself onto her at my party, because he was drunk. And because she was drunk, she pretty much gave up after a while of telling him to back off. I don't think me and Ollie can really be mates again. He's not the guy I thought he was.

Lilly's asleep on my bed next to me, and I can't get a cover for her cos I'm fucking hurting too much. She looks quite peaceful though, although really drained. And I hadn't noticed before, not even on our little dating week, but it looks to me now that she hasn't really eaten or slept since my party. She's quiet a lot skinnier than I remember, and it's made me really worried about her. Her friends haven't even realised; they're too holed up in Lauren's eating disorder to realise that Lilly might be developing one too. I don't know how things are going to be in the morning, and we'll probably never speak again, but I'm going to try my hardest to look out for her.

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OLIVER MOORE
WEDNESDAY, 8TH OCTOBER 2008
14:32
BEING A FRIEND

I'm just in the hospital cafe trying to pluck up the courage to go and see Josh. The problem is that I don't have any. I don't know what the hell I'm going to say to him or how he's going to react to me being there, but I know that I need to go up and show him that I'm a real friend to him and that I'm cool with whatever.

Even if I'm not cool with whatever, I'm going to show I am. As soon as he gets better I'm sure he's going to knock my teeth out or something for screwing up his girlfriend-to-be. Either way, gotta face the music.

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SUMMER FRANCIS-SMITH
WEDNESDAY, 8TH OCTOBER 2008
14:12
UNTITLED

Ok so I think I should go and see my baby Josh in hospital and make up with him, and see what he's going to do to get revenge on skanky Lilly Jenson and her brother.

Even if her brother is oh-so-hot. I wonder if he has a girlfriend? We used to be oh-so-close......

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
WEDNESDAY, 8TH OCTOBER 2008
12:30
UNTITLED

i think the best thing to do right now is take lil's mind off of things. thats why ive decided im going to try and speak to her tonight.im guessing she might be pretty upset about what happened between josh and corey yesterday, but im going to try and make sure she doesnt get in touch with him or anything cos dya think that will only make her worse?? he screwed her over and even though its not her fault, he really hurt her and i dont think she should go back and see him, not too yet its too soon.

ahhhh i do hope hes okay though. i spoke to jordon who said he might have to go to hospital. so much drama!

xoxoxo

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LILLY JENSON
WEDNESDAY, 8TH OCTOBER 2008
10:29
LJ ON ... BEING ANGRY

I can't believe what happened between Corey and Josh yesterday. I'm so angry!!!! I can't believe Corey went for Josh like that, I'm so so so upset with him! After being so sympathetic towards him as well! I'm so upset, I don't know what to do, I mean I really want to go and see Josh to apologise now - well, I need to - but he's not going to want to speak to me now. And it's going to seem like I'm just there to give him sympathy, not because I really want to be...

I'm so upset. I made Corey drop me straight home last night, so I've been in the flat all night but haven't been able to sleep. I'm sure everyone's talking about it but I haven't seen the outside world yet this morning so no-ones asked me about it and I haven't heard whether Josh is okay or not. He was all cut up and looked to be in loads of pain yesterday. I feel so awful.

I don't even know why I was so surprised to see Josh there yesterday, I just hadn't thought about it and connected him to the rugby try-outs, even though he's in Hallam's first rugby team. I should have realised but I've been so preoccupied with everything... so I was really surprised when I saw him and he looked surprised to. I told him Corey was my brother - something to get me one over on Summer FS clearly, by the look on her face - and Corey was singing Josh's praises saying that he had definitely been given the slot because of how amazing he was. I was kind of happy for Josh, even though I was so mad with him... anyway it was really awkward between us both, then Corey came over and asked how we knew each other... and I was such a bitch, I should have known what would happen when I told Corey Josh was the one who messed me around... and then suddenly Josh was in a heap on the floor and argh I feel so sick thinking about it.

I have to go and talk to him.

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JOSH BAKER
WEDNESDAY, 8TH OCTOBER 2008
10:21
loserville...

To top it all off, I got a letter from uni/Wasps this morning saying that I wasn't chosen... I'm just a big fat fuckup really, aren't I?

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JOSH BAKER
TUESDAY, 8TH OCTOBER 2008
00:10
idiot... again...

Okay so I didn't think the day could get much worse. But oh yes, it got much, much worse. Tryouts went really well, I was really happy with the way I played and seemed to be getting a lot of attention from the scouts and Wasps team who were down there to try and help decide who was going to go through. So anyway, here's me pretty much running around like an arse hoping somewhere among the crowd Lilly was watching.

I was wrong though, because she didn't turn up until the end, when she went straight up to one of the Corey Jenson, the Wasps player, and he gave her a massive hug. They had a big chat for ages and must have been talking about the guys who tried out, cos he said something about pointed my way, and Lilly looked over before her face fell and she looked really upset. She started to turn away but I guessed it was the only chance to speak to her, so I ran over and took her arm and asked what she was doing here. And then she told me something that dumbass here should have sifted out himself - Corey Jenson is Lilly Jenson's brother. Go figure. Well apparently I wasn't the only one who didn't know because the whole of Hallam practically fell to their knees in awe of LJ.

So then her brother comes over and asks how we know each other already. And Lilly replies "oh, this is the guy who screwed me over at the weekend". I think as soon as she said it she regretted it, cos then I got grabbed and thrown to the floor and smacked and pretty much got kicked the shit out of. And it pretty much fucking hurt. As if there wasn't enough drama already. I was surprised Corey Jenson didn't get arrested the way he took chunks out of me. Lilly tried to apologise but got dragged away by her brother into a waiting BMW.

Put it this way I don't think I'm gonna be playing for a couple of weeks, my ribs hurt like hell. But I deserve it; of course he was going to throw a punch in, he's Lilly's brother. And he's Corey fucking Jenson.

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LAUREN CAMPBELL
TUESDAY, 7TH OCTOBER 2008
19:03
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okay so what i love about summer bloody fs is that she forgets sometimes to miss out some of the most important details!

such as the rugby hottie running the trials, who she and her friends and practically the whole female side of hallam went to see today was none other than lilly jensons brother

ohhh i loved the look on her face when josh asked lilly what she was doing her, and she replied that corey was her brother. the whole of the field practically gasped, and summers face practically fell

what i didnt love was lilly running into josh. so not good.

xoxo

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LILLY JENSON
TUESDAY, 7TH OCTOBER 2008
18:47
LJ ON ...

Just waiting for Corey to finish some kind of rugby training at Hallam. I think we're going to go and catch a movie and then stay over somewhere close by. I love the effort he's making to try and make me feel better.

I spoke to Mum today and she's really gutted for me too. I wanted to speak to Rebecca, I was feeling a bit homesick but she's always out, either with her boyfriend or her friends. I'd love to be 18 again... just rewind the whole thing and start over...

Jamie texted me today, which kind of didn't help the situation. He said he had heard about what happened [who hasn't] and was sorry to see me upset. Not that he really cares, after what he did.

Come to think about it, they've both got it on with Summer FS. What is it about her that I haven't got?

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JOSH BAKER
TUESDAY, 7TH OCTOBER 2008
14:10
the radar...

Lauren called me again this morning to say that Lilly was back in Sheffield and in her flat, although she hasn't had time to talk to her yet. I was thinking of going straight over, but knew it wouldn't do any good. I've tried ringing her, and her phone's on, but she just keeps diverting my call. Everyone on campus is talking about what happened and how bad they feel for Lilly, and I'm glad Summer's getting a pretty hard time over it - nothing less than she deserves.

Anyway, so the Lilly radar is on and everyone's been coming up to me asking if I knew Lilly was back on campus. Each time I looked like a fool, telling them that I didn't have a clue. Then they realise we haven't made up, and start kinda feeling sorry for me. I'm just not into all this shit, all the squealing gossiping girls and the dirty looks and bitching and it all does my head in, I hate it.

Got rugby try outs tonight, and I'm this close to skipping it but I know my Dad will kill me if he finds out. The player that does best in try outs gets to train with Wasps every week, which is pretty much the coolest thing in the whole world. But I just feel I haven't got the energy. I don't even want it, I don't care about it right now. Last week it was my whole dream but this week is a whole new kettle of fish.

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To any random, the summer seems to have gone by pretty smoothly and it's next week, when uni starts, that things are going to get nasty... But to the insider, it began five months ago. Lilly Jenson is fed up with her boyfriend, Lauren Camps has instantly dropped 2st, and Summer Francis-Smith is as bitchy as ever and Josh Baker doesn't seem to know what to do about it.

And I just found a load of goodies. Summer had ditched her old gossip blog and set up a brand new "watch it, cos i am it" diary, whilst Lilly, Lauren and Josh have all set up their own to give us the biggest insight ever into the Hallam brats.

And I, my friends, am here to hand it all to you on a plate. So get ready, 'cos it's gonna get messy....

ps:// don't forget to start at the beginning....

• THE HALLAM BRATS

Lilly Jenson
Lauren Campbell
Summer Francis-Smith
Josh Baker
Oliver Moore

• MY STORY

LILLY JENSON ON LIFE
CAMPS
JOSH BAKER
WATCH IT, COS I AM IT
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• RECENT ENTRIES

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• LOOKING BACK

September 2008
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• PROFILES





• CONTACT

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