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LILLY JENSONFRIDAY, 31ST OCTOBER 200817:17LJ on ... Camps the bestestI wish Camps would stop laughing every time she opens the door to Eoghain!!! He's called around three times in as many hours and Camps finds it absolutely hilarious... and he doesn't even realise she's laughing at him............
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LAUREN CAMPBELLFRIDAY, 31ST OCTOBER 200817:15UNTITLEDwhats next from eoghain..... a fucking marriage proposal??!?!!
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OLIVER MOOREFRIDAY, 31ST OCTOBER 200817:00weirdoOkay so that Eoghain bloke has called up three times... in the last three hours... from outside to come and give flowers and costume pieces and shit to Lilly.
Weirdo.
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JOSH BAKERFRIDAY, 31ST OCTOBER 200815:38back...I'm back in dreary Hallam and the guys all welcomed me with big man-hugs, three crates of beer and six halloween costumes for tonight. It's pretty great of them, and I didn't feel up to going out at first but I think after a couple of beer I might feel a bit better. They're all trying to keep off the subject of my Mum, and they're all been great, I really appreciate it.
I walked past Lilly's halls of residence earlier and saw Eoghain walking in with a bunch of flowers. I felt shit about it until I got home and mentioned it to the guys and they said he's a bit of a weirdo and is far more into Lilly than she is into him. He took her on a date to her Mum's restaurant last night, which was pretty awkward for her so they've heard. Oh and it went absolutely shit, which pretty much put a smile on myself.
So now I've settled in I'm gonna relax with the guys for a bit and see what I feel up to later.
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SUMMER FRANCIS-SMITHFRIDAY, 31ST OCTOBER 200812:04UNTITLEDI am going to this party tonight if it's the last thing I do!!
Watch out, SFS's crew about!!!
xxx
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LAUREN CAMPBELL
FRIDAY, 31ST OCTOBER 2008
10:31
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hahahahahahahahha!!!!! (sorry lil!)
but it was soooooooo funny when lil told me the story of her date last night!!!! it was a disaster!!!!!
tonight is going to be fun!!!!!!!!
hahahahahahahahha!!!!! (sorry lil!)
xoxoxoxoxoxo
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LILLY JENSONTHURSDAY, 30TH OCTOBER 200823:57LJ on ... having some explaining to doI can't believe how bad tonight has been! I'm so frustrated! Everything was going good, Eoghain told me to dress up because he was taking me for quite a drive to somewhere really special, so I put one of my best dinner dresses on and he picked me up at six sharp and he looked really nice... and he drove... and drove... and drove...
...and ended up at my Mum's restaurant.
I couldn't believe it!
I asked him why we were here, trying my hardest not to be shocked, and he was so pleased with himself for finding out that it was my Mum's restaurant and he thought I would be so pleased, as if I hadn't ever eaten in there before...
So I walk in and Mum had decided to spend that night overlooking the restaurant - I've never felt so awkward in my whole life. Her eyes were questioning me every time she looked over, and I felt so embarrassed with Eoghain insisted on introducing himself to her. I could tell straight away that she doesn't like him. When Eoghain went to the toilets Mum came straight over and asked me what I was doing here with Eoghain when I should be with Josh at this very difficult time. So then I had to give Mum a condensed 10-second explanation on why me and Josh weren't exactly talking, leaving out all of the details. Mum was really great after that and said we'd talk about it more later, and that hopefully things will sort out between us. But just before Eoghain returned to our table she said, 'in the meantime you shouldn't date this dim young boy to make you realise how much you love Josh'.
Grrr. I hate how Mums know it all!!!
So anyway I insisted to Eoghain that I had to go home because I had an important meeting tomorrow morning. He drove us home, mentioning a million times how disappointed he was that the date couldn't last longer. He kissed me at the end of the night.
And that was that.
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LAUREN CAMPBELL
THURSDAY, 30TH OCTOBER 2008
15:47
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me and lil have been working on our halloween costumes all day for eoghains party and we look soooo cool!!! lil especially shes a cat and she looks hot!!!!!! im gonna be a dead version of lil bo peep fun times!!!!! jordon said he might return with josh for the weekend and so they might pop into the party to take their minds off things although i dont think josh will want to stay when he sees eoghain cosying up to our lil!!! we didnt think its a good idea to tell lil that josh is coming back so im not going to he probs wont come to the party and they probs wont bump into each other all weekend anyways!!
talking of eoghain i cant believe hes taking lil out again tonight!!!!!! to somewhere really fancy apparently!!!! but with tomorrows party aswell that means hes had her 3 nights this week!!!! which is far too eager even for my liking!!!! i hope she has a great night but grrrr i hope he does something wrong and lil realises how much she likes josh!!! grrrrr
xoxoxoxo
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JOSH BAKERTHURSDAY, 30TH OCTOBER 200804:28...Everything's pretty much settled down a little bit and things are a bit calmer. Mum's trying to be strong for Mikey and Dad's trying to be strong for Mum and... I'm just trying to support them as much as I can and make sure all the day to day stuff is sorted.
Journalist's have been ringing and there's been so many cards and flowers delivered, loads of our close friends have been around the house giving support and it's been a bit overwhelming for everyone.
Dad thinks that I should return home tomorrow and catch up with my essays over the weekend before uni starts again on Monday. I know he's right but I just don't want to leave everyone here. He said it's probably better if I see my friends and try and get things back to normal with Lilly... I know he's right again but I just can't make things right with Lilly, all I ever do it upset her no matter how hard she tries with me. I'm just an idiot, she's too good for me. I act too laid back when it comes to dating, and I've heard Eoghain's been paying her loads of attention and won't stop asking her out, and I guess she might like that kind of thing. I dunno. I guess I'll try and talk to her when things have calmed down a bit more.
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LILLY JENSONWEDNESDAY, 29TH OCTOBER 200810:05LJ on ... lifeEoghain's been in touch loads last night and this morning, he seems really eager which makes me feel a bit apprehensive. He won't stop going on about this 'fabulous restaurant' that he's driving me to tomorrow night, and he says he's booked us a hotel.... which me and Camps are really not happy about, even to the extent that Camps might come in disguise as soon as she knows where we are. I mean... a hotel. Bit soon? I made up an excuse about having to be back early the next morning for uni, and he said he'll see how I feel tomorrow...
I think Camps is going back to Cambridge and I feel I should be there too. But I can't go where I'm not wanted.... so......
Going to go to the library for some books and then spend all day on my essays, see if I can get my head around them. I've had so much fun these first six weeks of uni but now it looks as though the fun stops and the hard work starts!!!! Bad times.
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OLIVER MOORETUESDAY, 28TH OCTOBER 200819:37waiting gameMy interview went really well today, I think so anyway. They asked me loads of questions and made sure I was mad about the course etc and then said they'd get in touch over the next couple of days. Hopefully they'll let me here and I can stay here in Hallam.
I'm still at Lilly's flat, I don't think she's too pleased about it but she's just too nice and won't tell me to go home. She went out on a date with Eoghain last night, not too sure about that, I thought she was mad about Josh and knowing Lilly she's just trying to date Eoghain to take her mind off of Josh.
Who hasn't been in touch, by the way. I wanna go over there and help him but I don't think it's really a good idea, seems as I made him and Lilly fall out. Yet again.
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LILLY JENSONTUESDAY, 28TH OCTOBER 200817:20LJ on ... gossipEveryone's making a big deal about me being spotted out to dinner with Eoghain last night. I don't see what the big problem is, but there was this huge hype surrounding Josh and I and I think most people thought we were together... so now they think I'm cheating on him.
Hmmm I wonder who started this rumour? SFS so needs to grow up. Karma is a bitch and it's just going to come back to her so bad one day.
I'm really looking forward to Eoghain's party at the weekend, how fun is it going to be!!!! I might dress up as a cat... but I guess that's not scary... or with all these rumours going around I might go in a mask so that no-one recognises me!
Most of the girls have gone home for the week because they don't have lectures, so I'm a bit lonely here by myself, need to speak to Camps and see when she's back home.
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JOSH BAKERTUESDAY, 28TH OCTOBER 200815:12...Still feel pretty much shit about everything. Spent all day at the hospital today but it just made me feel worse seeing Mum in so much pain. She start's chemotherapy in the next ten days.
Not heard from Lilly. Or Ollie. Not heard from anyone really.
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LAUREN CAMPBELLTUESDAY, 28TH OCTOBER 200810:01UNTITLEDive just found lils blog online through ollies and omg its annoying!!!!! im annoyed!!!! ahhhh she enjoyed this date last night butttttt why is she lying and saying eoghains reaaaaaaally gorgeous i mean yeah hes good looking but not half........... a QUARTER as good looking as josh!!!!! and not a quarter as muscly as josh either!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i know what shes doinggg shes just going out with eoghain to take her mind off of josh!!!!! you watch she wont mention josh for ages and shell just go along with saying she likes eoghain etc etc etc yadda yadda!!!!!! i know she really doesnt think this date was half..... a quarter!!!...... as good as her ones with josh cos shes like 'it was nice' 'it was nice' nice nice nice nice and she hates using that word!!!!!!!!
argh i wish i could somehow change her mind!!!
im staying at jordons for a bit maybe for tonight and then go home tomorrow and sort things out back there!!!!
xoxoxoxo
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LILLY JENSONMONDAY, 27TH OCTOBER 200823:47LJ ON ...So I went out tonight with Eoghain expecting to be a bit iffy with the situation because of what's been going on. But ahh it was great!!! He looked so gorgeous in a shirt and tie and told me how gorgeous I looked in my new dress - he took me to Bistro Pierre, and insisted on paying for the whole thing. We had such a nice night talking non-stop and he's rather cute, and those muscles....
We had a really fun night and when he walked me home he gave me a little kiss and it was really nice. He asked me out to dinner again on Thursday night and I told him yes... and my heart is beating a little bit and ahhh!
Oh, and it's his birthday on Saturday, so he's having a birthday/halloween party at Superfly on Friday night and wants me and all the gang to come. Should be fun!!!!! I'm going to ring Camps asap to arrange outfits!!!!
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SUMMER FRANCIS-SMITH
MONDAY, 27th OCTOBER 2008
20:30
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So, Lilly tried to play down her little fight with Joshy when I saw her earlier.
Thing is, she's just been spotted in Bistro Pierre on the arm of Eoghain Murphy.
So, if she's still all cosy with Josh like people think she is, that means she's cheating on him.
Lilly Jenson, quite the bitch!
xxxx
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THE INSIDER
Am I alone in thinking Lilly shouldn't be going out on this date tonight? Blocking all thoughts of Josh and going out with Eoghain when clearly besotted by Josh is not the way forward.
They can't ignore this romance forever, right?
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LILLY JENSON
MONDAY, 27TH OCTOBER 2008
14:11
LJ ON ...
The meeting with my tutor went well and I'm well on the way for a good dissertation idea. But on my way back I bumped into Summer and she made a scene about me and Josh falling out. I don't know who but someone's leaking information out and I hate it. So I tried my best to cope with Summer and just smiled at her and asked her where her friends were, before walking away.
I got back home and Ollie told me he had bumped into Summer earlier this morning... so there we go. Him and his big mouth. When we got home last night we talked for ages and almost sorted things out... we're on talking terms but I don't exactly like being alone with him. So just when we had sorted things out he goes and tells Summer about what's going on. He said he only mentioned it and knowing Summer she's just exaggerated it and invented her own version. Still, I'm annoyed with Ollie for talking to her.
Oh, and Eoghain called to ask if I wanted to go for dinner tonight... and I thought, why not? So I told him why not.
So it looks as though I have a date...!
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LAUREN CAMPBELL
MONDAY, 27TH OCTOBER 2008
09:20
UNTITLED
ok so ive just got to jordons after a looooong weekend in london............ and lillys not here! josh is locked up in his room and jordon said he went apeshit and had a big go at lil for asking ollie to come over, and she went home!!!!!!!!!!
so now i dont know whether to go back to hallam or stay here.......... im stuck!!!!!!! i really want to stay here and make sure jordons ok i feel so bad that i havent been here all weekend to make sure everythings ok but i need to make sure lils ok too!!!!
josh and lil are soooooo meant to be it just never works out for them and i hate it i feel so bad for them both!!!!!! when they get together with no complications theyll be perfect!!!!!!
xoxoxoxo
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LILLY JENSONSUNDAY, 26TH OCTOBER 200823:52LJ ON ...I think it's safe to say me liking Josh was the biggest mistake I ever made. I was totally stupid to think that he could like someone like me.
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JOSH BAKERSUNDAY, 26TH OCTOBER 200821:39screwed up... again...Spent the afternoon/evening with Lilly after coming home from the hospital. Mum's awake and talking although she's devastated about what's happened. Lilly's been keeping me company all night and she's been so great with Mikey and everyone, even driving my Grandparents home and cooking dinner for us all.
Half an hour ago there was a knock at the door and Dad called up saying it was for me. I went downstairs and there was Ollie. Because I was so wound up from the whole day I went a bit mad and asked him what he was doing turning up on my doorstep. He told me Lilly had rang him - I stupidly went upstairs back to my room and yelled at her too. She tried to calm me down but I just couldn't calm down and she said she asked Ollie to come over to help out and make everything better. So I stupidly got really mad and told her that she was making everything worse. She got really upset and stood up and tried to reason with me for some reason everything that I had kept in these past couple of days came out and I yelled at her really bad; I don't know why the hell I took my anger out on her when she had been the one who stuck with me through the weekend. She looked so hurt and as soon as Ollie came in the room I came to my senses and tried to apologise but Lilly was already gathering her stuff together. I tried to stop her from leaving; she was crying and I knew she couldn't drive home if she was in a state, plus she had had a couple of glasses of wine, but she just rushed past me and Ollie followed her.
Dad heard the whole thing and is now really mad with me and I want to drive after her but ARGH.
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LILLY JENSONSUNDAY, 26TH OCTOBER 200813:32LJ on ...I woke up this morning and Josh was still asleep... then I fell back sleep, woke up five minutes ago and he isn't here. I'm assuming he's at the hospital and didn't want to wake me, although my phone battery's dead so I can't find out. It's really cold and I've put on one of his jumpers to keep warm. I'm so tired, but contemplating going down to the hospital to keep him company.
I rang Ollie quickly this morning, it was really weird but I thought I needed to let him know what was happening, seems as he's one of Josh's oldest friends. He said he'd try and make it down, so we'll see later.
I tried to get in touch with Camps but she's working solidly all weekend, and she'll be back in Hallam tomorrow. I really want to stay here but I've got a meeting with my dissertation tutor tomorrow morning, so I'm going to maybe drive down tonight if I'm awake enough.
Argh I don't know what to do to try and make myself useful. I don't even really know if Josh wants me here; after all we did fall out. I just hope he's okay.
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OLIVER MOORESUNDAY, 26TH OCTOBER 200811:21friendshipI got a surprise call from Lilly today, saying that Josh's Mum is really ill in hospital and she thinks that maybe I should go over and spend some time with him. She said he's in a really bad way and she doesn't know what to do to make him better, and even after everything that's happened he might like it if I go over.
I'm really gutted for him, especially after his Mum was given the all-clear. I'm getting my bags ready now and I'm gonna drive over later tonight.
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LILLY JENSON
SATURDAY, 25TH OCTOBER 2008
23:40
Lilly on ...
Me and Josh went for a walk earlier when we got back from the hospital. He hadn't said a single word all day to anyone, but when we were alone again he finally started talking.
We went to the canal and sat down on a bench and it was absolutely freezing, and Josh put his arm around me; I think it was comfort for him as well as keeping me warm. He told me lots of stories about what he, Mikey and Jordon did when they were younger. Some of them included his Mum, some of them didn't. It was nice to sit down and hear him talk about it, and he even laughed a few times.
It was silent between us again for a while, and I didn't really know what to say to him about what's happened. He hasn't told me how he feels and he hasn't really spoken about it; he hasn't really shown his emotions yet either and I can see that he's trying his hardest to act strong.
I really enjoyed our walk but I wasn't sure whether Josh wanted to be alone for a bit with his family, although he didn't ask me to leave so I went back to his house and everyone was there; his Dad, Jordon, Mikey and their Grandparents. Mikey was really upset and confused about the situation and didn't understand where his Mum was, but he calmed down a bit when he saw Josh and he sat with him for a while whilst I helped their Nana make some food.
The house was so quiet all night and no-one really ate anything. I feel so awful for them all, it must be so horrible for them to have to go through all of this after already being put through it once before. I honestly had no idea.
Josh has just come into his room from his shower and he looks so deflated. Utterly gorgeous, but deflated. I don't know what to say to make him feel any better but hopefully me being here is enough.
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SUMMER FRANCIS-SMITH
SATURDAY, 25TH OCTOBER 2008
17:28
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I knew it wouldn't be long before I came up with the perfect plan!!! All I have to do is wait for the perfect time...
xxxx
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JOSH BAKERSATURDAY, 25TH OCTOBER 200816:04...When I woke up Lilly was asleep next to me, her head buried in my chest, and my arm was around her. I don't know how we fell asleep like that but I liked it. I could smell the shampoo in her hair and her breath tickled my skin. I didn't move for a long time, cos I didn't want to wake her up. I wanted to stay like that forever - me and Lilly, curled up, together. After a while I touched her hair and she moved a little closer to me, ducking her head more under mine.
And then I realised. My mind raced back to what had happened the night before and Lilly woke up, obviously feeling my body tense. She tried to stop me from rushing around getting dressed but I just had to get to the hospital as soon as possible.
Mum looked so old and pale and ill. I hate it.
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LILLY JENSON
SATURDAY, 25TH OCTOBER 2008
10:52
UNTITLED
Everything isn't okay. Josh's Mum is very, very ill, and has been for some time. I didn't know anything about it, and right now I daren't ask, but I'm so glad that I decided to drive over to Cambridge.
Josh was in an awful state when I arrived. I got there just as the doctor told them that their Mum's cancer has returned. It was the most heartbreaking news for me, I can't even imagine how it felt for Josh and Jordon. Josh spaced out and would have collapsed if he hadn't been helped onto a chair. I sat with him and tried to console him the best I could but he didn't cry; he was in shock and just stared into space, his head bowed and eyes empty.
I've never seen him like that before and I'm so worried about him. He was spaced out for the rest of night, in shock, not talking and not answering to anything; I don't even think he knew I was there.
Eventually we persuaded him to leave the hospital and I drove him home. Their Dad had arrived and he and Jordon stayed there but Josh wasn't in the right frame of mind to stay. I drove us back with directions from Jordon and tried to get Josh to get some rest but he didn't listen to me; he went onto his computer and mumbled that he wasn't tired.
I must have fallen asleep about 5am, I woke up at 9am and Josh was finally asleep next to me, his hair in his eyes and his face all pale and tired. I feel awful for him, I really do. Jordon came home this morning to collect some things for his Mum; he said she's in theatre and that's the only update that they have. I know Josh might be mad that I haven't woken him but after last night I think he needs some more rest.
Mikey is staying with their Grandparents for a couple of days, to make sure he doesn't get distressed. He was really excited about seeing me this morning and didn't really understand what was going on - it's heartbreaking.
I'm really tired so I might lay down with Josh for a couple of hours and get some rest. I feel so awful for him.
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JOSH BAKER
SATURDAY, 25TH OCTOBER 2008
04:08
...
I've had the worst night possible. Mum was cooking dinner for us earlier when suddenly she fainted and we couldn't bring her round. I've never panicked so much in my whole life and the next thing I know Mum was being rushed to the hospital in the ambulance and we were in there with her and she wasn't breathing and...
I can't believe it. I really thought Mum was getting better, but she's been so drained and I've been too busy with all this fucking drama at uni to notice that my Mum is literally fading away. I've been so blind and I'm so fucking angry with myself.
They wouldn't tell us anything at the hospital. After hours of waiting and no answers from the million questions we asked the doctors I started getting angry and upset. I tried so hard to contain it but I'm just so fucking angry with myself that I couldn't help it.
We had left Mikey in bed but he woke up and rang asking where we were and I tried explaining the best I could but I got upset again and...
After five hours of waiting the doctor finally came out and told us something that I really couldn't deal with hearing. Mum's cancer has returned. She doesn't have any option than to go into surgery as soon as possible to undergo a double mastectomy. I don't remember my legs giving way but I remember being helped onto a chair, and then I remember someone putting their arms around me. I looked up but didn't register than it was Lilly. All I remember was her arms around me really tightly.
The next thing I realise it's 4am and I'm back home but can't sleep. Lilly is sitting in my chair asking me to try and get some rest but now I'm wide awake. I can't remember half of the night, all I know is that we're back at the bottom of the hill again with a long way to go up. And that as soon as she knew I was in trouble, Lilly was there to try and help me through it.
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LILLY JENSON
FRIDAY, 24TH OCTOBER 2008
20:46
LJ ...
I've just had a really panicked phone call from Camps saying that Josh's and Jordon's Mum has collapsed and been rushed to A&E in Cambridge. So now I'm really worried and Camps can't be there because she's in London for the weekend, so I'm going to drive down.
Apparently Josh is in a state and their Dad is working away... I'm putting some overnight things into a bag now and I'm going to get over there as soon as I can.
I hope everything is ok.
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LILLY JENSON
FRIDAY, 24TH OCTOBER 2008
19:01
LILLY ON ... HOME
It feels so good to be home!!! I even ate the meal Mum cooked for me tonight, it was the best!!
I tried to call Josh today but he ignored my calls, so it's obvious that I've upset him. All my parents could talk about was the ball but after dinner I talked to Corey about everything and he said the only way things were going to work out was if I put all my cards on the table and let Josh know how I feel.
But I just don't know if I can make that step. I really am smitten with him but I don't know if I can say that to him and give him all of me. What if he throws it back in my face? I'm scared about being hurt again. I know that if anything happened between Josh and I then Summer would try to step in and ruin it at the first opportunity, and I can't stand the thought of Josh giving into her again.
Argh stop it!!! I've come home to get away from everything for the weekend. Shut up Lil.
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JOSH BAKERFRIDAY, 24TH OCTOBER 200816:19strongOkay so now is the time to stop being such a pussy and to start acting the man that I am. All I ever do on this blog is get slushy about Lilly Jenson and look where it's got me! She tried to call me today but I ignored it; I'm sure she's very happy with Eoghain.
And yeah that's me being totally bitter but I'm determined to have a good weekend at home away from Lilly Jenson and everything at Hallam. I'm going to concentrate on having a good time with my family.
And hopefully by Monday Lilly Jenson would have decided that I'm the guy she wants to be with.
- I do make myself laugh...
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LAUREN CAMPBELLFRIDAY, 24TH OCTOBER 200810:20UNTITLEDpoor lil she cant do right from wrong!!!!!!!!!! its not her fault so many guys like her and its not her fault josh screwed up!!!!!! i just feel so sorry for them all, espesh josh and lil because they soooo obv like each other they just cant get together!!!!!!!
i know its all that everyone talks about but theyre just soooo cute when theyre together and they deserve to be together and argggh its annoying!!!
anyway im off for the weekend, for a boring weekend being a boring PA - see you all on monday!!!!!
xoxoxoxoxo
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LILLY JENSON
FRIDAY, 24TH OCTOBER 2008
08:28
LJ ON ... UPSETTING PEOPLE
I hate the way me and Josh never run smoothly. One of us always does something to upset the other and that's why we're not working out. Last night I went out with Eoghain and he was really nice and just friendly, but after a few drinks he told me how much he liked me, and even though I told him I was a bit relunctant, he kept taking my hand etc and telling me how pretty I was. Which was totally flattering, but all I could think about was Josh.
He walked me home quite early because I was really tired and when we got to the gates he tried to kiss me. To be honest I was a bit tempted and I did kiss him back for a split second before I saw someone standing in front of us and it was Josh, stood holding a bouquet of flowers. When he looked at me his eyes were so hurt, and I felt so guilty. I asked him what he was doing here and he said he came to apologise about the other night. I swear if I hadn't made the decision to stay away I would have jumped into his arms right there and then. But he probably wouldn't have let me, because he was really upset with what he saw and he gave me the flowers before saying he would leave us to it... and then he walked away.
I'm gutted that I've upset him and I'm mad that this always happens. I really wish everything wasn't so complicated, but if it is this complicated then maybe it's not meant to be?
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JOSH BAKERTHURSDAY, 23RD OCTOBER22:22...Okay so I finally plucked up the courage to call Lilly to see what she was doing tonight. But she didn't answer her phone all night, so I thought I'd might as well go over there and see whether she's free.
I bought her a small bouquet of flowers to say sorry for the argument we had at my party. And I was just walking up to the gates when I saw her walking back towards her halls... with Eoghain. I stopped and watched them for a second, feeling a bit disheartened, and saw that he tried to hold her hand but she pulled away from him and put her hands in her pockets. When they got to the gates I didn't have time to duck out of the way but they didn't see me. They stopped at her gates and as she was trying to find her key in her bag Eoghain took her hand and kissed her. I turned around to walk away when Lilly called my name and I looked back at her; she looked surprised that I was stood there waiting for her, and guilty that I had witnessed Eoghain's attempt to kiss her [i don't know whether she responded because I turned away...]. Eoghain looked a bit pissed off to be interrupted but Lilly asked me what I was doing here and I gave her the flowers and said I had come around to apologise.
She looked really surprised and then really guilty as she looked at me, so obviously something was going on between her and Eoghain. Before she had the chance to say anything I apologised for interrupting them both and then walked away.
I'm really gutted but I should have seen it coming, I just somehow thought she might not be that into him. But he must be a top guy if she likes him.
Lucky guy.
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OLIVER MOORETHURSDAY, 23RD OCTOBER 200820:20half way to sortedOkay so I've applied for a transfer to Hallam for my final year. I don't know whether it's a clever idea or a totally stupid one; I guess I'll know once I get there.
It shouldn't be a problem because we're not far into the term, and MMU have organised an interview for me on Tuesday, so I have to get myself over there and get sorted and try and make a really good impression.
I'm quite confident about it, but not confident about the reaction I'll get from Lilly Josh & co once I tell them my plans.
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LAUREN CAMPBELL
THURSDAY, 23RD OCTOBER 2008
17:31
UNTITLED
jordons asked me to come home with him for the weekend and ahhhhh i reeeeeeally want to go but i cant i gotta go and do a placement in london for my course and ahhh its probably going to be really borrrrrrring and id rather be tucked up in bed with jordon any day but i dont have a choice!!!!!!
it would be great to meet his family again ahhhh bummer!!!!
lils got a date tonight grrr!!! well she says its not a date but i know eoghain wants it to be a date and thats not good cos i want her to get with josh argggggh!!!!
xoxoxoxo
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LILLY JENSON
THURSDAY, 23RD OCTOBER 2008
14:29
LJ ON ...
Eoghain kept texting me this morning whilst I was in lectures and then he called me leaving a message asking if I wanted to go out with him tonight. I talked to Camps about it and she said he does like me and would probably want something to happen between us but if I made it clear I just wanted to be friends with him then he'd be okay with that.
So I accepted his offer to hang out tonight, and I'm quite looking forward to it. I enjoyed all the time we spent together last week, and he is a total hottie, and even though I like Josh I don't mind being friends with Eoghain as long as he can keep it that way.
I think I'm going to go home tomorrow, Corey said he'll be popping over too so I'm going to go and see them all, really looking forward to it.
I'm going to the pub with Eoghain at eight so that gives me enough time to get on with my ethics essay... fun times...
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JOSH BAKERTHURSDAY, 23RD OCTOBER 200812:32gutless...So it's pretty much near to the end of the week and I still haven't plucked up the courage to talk to Lilly. I know I said I was going to wait for everything to calm down but I can't help thinking about her. So I think I'm going to call her tonight and see if she wants to hang out for a bit. It's pound a pint so we could always go for a drink or something...
All the guys are telling me to go for it but I'm just so gutless. I don't even know how she feels; she was pretty mad at me at the party and said she didn't want to talk to me again, so...
Argh for fuck's sake. At the start of term I was going out with frigging Summer Francis-Smith, who was making me the most miserable person on earth. And so now that I like someone who I know is going to be great, I should just go for it and make myself happy. It's just not as easy as it sounds.
Mum rang again today and said she didn't feel too well, which worried me a bit but we're going over tomorrow so hopefully we can help her out with looking after Mikey and what have you. I just hope she's not pushing herself too hard with everything.
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LILLY JENSON
WEDNESDAY, 22ND OCTOBER 2008
23:00
LJ ON ... THINKING
Okay so maybe I shouldn't stay in all of the time... it's so quiet when all of the girls go out and I have so much time to sit down and contemplate things! Which is never good.
I can't believe it's Christmas soon! I really need to start buying my presents. Our parents totally spoil us at Christmas and we have huge family gatherings practically every day of the holidays. There's always something going on and I love it; I love the way Mum decorates the whole house and I love seeing all of Dad's Christmas productions at Chic. Mum's been on about his end of year party non-stop and it's getting me quite excited about it too. Apparently she's been on the phone to Josh's Mum quite a bit and they've struck up quite a friendship, which is really nice, but a shame because I haven't told her that me and Josh aren't exactly together like she thinks we are, and I guess Josh hasn't told his Mum either. Anyway Mum said that she didn't realise Josh's Mum was a fashion designer and was already a very good aquaintance of Dad's, he didn't realise that she was Josh's Mum and so she received two invites; an official one in the post and an informal one over the phone. Mum said she had only just got back to work after being off for the past year for 'personal reasons', which maybe could be her taking time out to look after Josh's brother. Anyway so both families are really excited about the party, and I guess me and Josh have to sort things out.
This year it's going to be really important for me; Dad knew that I always wanted to go into fashion journalism and him being the sensible businessman he is made me promise that I would study at uni like every one else before I got a job; either by him or another company. He knew there was already enough gossip going around Hallam about me being the favourite and we agreed that I had to work for it the same as every body else; and besides, if he gave me a job and then something happened to him or the company, I would be out on my own with no qualifications. So now that I'm coming up to graduation next year I'll be looking for someone to take me on and instead of just choosing Dad's company I want to keep my options open. And all of the big people are going to be there on Nov 15th and I really have to impress them. I'm really nervous but really excited, and to be honest I can't think of anyone else I would like to be on the arm of rather than Josh.
Which pretty much explains everything doesn't it...
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LAUREN CAMPBELLWEDNESDAY, 22ND OCTOBER 200821:30UNTITLEDahhhhhhhhhhh im sooooooooooo in looooooooooooooooove!!!!
XOXOXOXOXOXO
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SUMMER FRANCIS-SMITHWEDNESDAY, 22ND OCTOBER 200820:38UNTITLEDI'm really pissed off and have gone home for the week to try and recouporate. I can't believe I'm all out of plans and the girls aren't backing me up!!!
But it's only a little blip, I'm sure Summer FS will be back and bigger than ever asap.I just need a plan.
Oh did you hear that Hannah likes Ben but he's secretly having it off with her sister? What is it with the whole sister thing any way??? Ollie trying to get into Rebecca's pants and all that, not feeling it, at all!!!
This is the only place I would admit such a thing but I kinda miss Josh. He was always there at my beck and call and I miss that. I miss him driving me around and taking me shopping. I also miss his body and how amazing he was in bed. Which makes me happy that he's not planning on getting with that hussy any time soon, and I still have a chance to make him come back to me.
I'm sure I can succeed, I am SFS after all...
xxxx
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LILLY JENSON
WEDNESDAY, 22ND OCTOBER 2008
13:00
LJ ON ... BEST FRIENDS
Camps found jama-gate absolutely hilarious this morning and wouldn't stop talking about it for ages. She actually really cheered me up, I love it when she makes fun of me she's so funny. And it's really nice to see her happy too. Jordon stayed over last night and they looked so cute together in the kitchen this morning. He's like 4 years older than her but they really suit each other - it's really funny because he's mental just like her, although Josh is much more chilled out. I kind of wish he had knocked on the door last night but after the argument we had I guess he didn't feel confident enough.
I've just got back from lectures and apparently Summer hasn't been seen out and about for a few days now. Not that I've noticed, but looking back on it I guess I haven't heard anything from her which is quite strange. Maybe she's gone home because she's broken a nail, or something...
I'm feeling really homesick again and might go home for the weekend to sort myself out. The only thing that's stopping me is that I know Mum's going to think I've lost a lot of weight and she's going to start going on about me not eating again. It's a bit of a private issue that hasn't got any further than my family - we've all been so concerned over the past few years about Camps that we never mention anything about it - but I can feel myself not eating too. And it's not good, I know, but I just can't help myself. I like to be in control of one thing in my life and seems as everything else is spiralling out, food is the one thing I can focus on and keep under control. I just like being skinny; that's the way it goes. I know I'm tall and naturally thin yadda yadda but Mum's going to notice and - like I'm 5 again - tell me off.
We need to start thinking of how to celebrate Halloween next week, I'm not sure where to go or who to invite but I guess it'll be nice if we all get together and can do something without anything kicking off again. I might even throw a party at home, just to get away from Hallam for a bit.
I've had a couple of text messages from Eoghain this morning asking if I wanted to go for coffee and I'm really tempted, and I feel guilty for letting him down, but my head's just not in the right place. Maybe some other time.
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JOSH BAKERWEDNESDAY, 22ND OCTOBER 200810:00funny...Last night the pub was pretty rammed because the footy was on so Lauren persuaded us to go round to hers and carry on the night there. We all guessed Lilly was out because there was no sound coming from her room, and we watched the footy and played some drinking games and got quite drunk.
Then around midnight Lilly emerged from her bedroom into the kitchen wearing the cutest winter jamas ever, and suddenly became the laughing stock of the kitchen. It was pretty funny, the guys found it hilarious. Anyway she kind of looked at me, blushed, grabbed a drink and practically ran back to her room. Everyone was encouraging me to knock on her door and say hello to her but I didn't dare to, so I left it and we ended up back home about 3ish.
It was a pretty good night and I'm feeling really good this morning, Jordon's staying until the end of the week and we're gonna go back to Cambridge together to see the family.
Him and Lauren are really cute together, they seem to be getting on really well even though she really is a bit loopy. She doesn't eat, never stops talking and is always away with the fairies. But he seems pretty into her so I'm pleased for him.
Mum rang me this morning and she won't stop going on about Lilly's Dad's end of year party. She said she's got her dress already sorted and made me promise we'd go shopping for tuxedos at the weekend. I think it's a bit far in advance and I need to speak to Lilly about it but I'm glad Mum's got something to look forward to. Since she's been in remission she's really enjoyed going back to work again and she's been socialising loads and it's really good for her. I might get her a gift actually before we go home, could always get her a bag to go with the gown she'll be wearing.
Gonna get to lectures then maybe carry on with these essays and get a bit more out of the way before the weekend so I've got nothing to stress about. I don't know what the guys' plans are for tonight but I'm guessing it'll be a night in with beer, pizza and football. Good times.
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LILLY JENSON
TUESDAY, 21ST OCTOBER 2008
23:59
LJ on ... snoopy pyjamas
I can't believe what's just happened... I think I've just about died from shame...
The girls went to the pub and I heard them all come in about an hour ago, so it must have been too busy to stay there and they've decided to come back. It was really cold and I had nothing to do so I put my thickest snoopy pyjamas on - saved for winter alone times - and worked on my dissertation for a few hours.
They were really rowdy so I went out to get a drink... and there was Josh in the kitchen. Sat down playing ring of fire with all the girls, and Jordon and most of Josh's housemates from 110, who of course couldn't help but make comments about my 'cute pjs', making Josh look up and realise I had walked in, then blushing, then me blushing, then everyone sniggering at each other because Josh and Lilly are so obviously meant to be yadda yadda...
Soooo I kind of grabbed my juice and ran back to my room. And here I am. And I hope Josh doesn't knock on the door; I might actually change back into my clothes just so I stop looking like a 5 year old live woodstock.
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JOSH BAKERTUESDAY, 21ST OCTOBER 200820:08pub time...Jordon's just come back up for a couple of days because he's got a last-minute job interview in Sheffield tomorrow afternoon, which is pretty cool. And he said Lauren told him Lilly's not out tonight, so the lads all gathered around and said we should hit the pub. I was tempted to keep going with this essay, but they persuaded me to get up and get a shower and now we're just about to head out for quids night.
Should be fun.
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