THE GOSSIP
LILLY JENSONMONDAY, 29TH SEPTEMBER 200807:14"LJ ON ... ENJOYING HERSELF"It's been a really nice night. I was really nervous earlier back home, wasn't sure what to wear or how the night was going to unfold or who was going to be there. And whether anyone was going to talk to me, and of course whether Josh really wanted to invite me or whether he was just taking the mick.
I ended up wearing a really simple dress with wooly tights and boots, made sure I looked nice and not too OTT, cos I knew I'd be meeting some of his family. Anyway so Josh went home early in the morning and I caught a lift with Camps and Ollie (which was a bit more than awkward). Josh's house is AMAZING. I love it! It's so much bigger than my house back home, his is seven bedrooms I think. Josh was really nice introducing me to all of his mates and his family and there were a few girls there who I got on with really well. We had a really nice dinner and had a fair bit of wine before everyone made their way out into the gardens for the rest of the night.
I ended up losing everyone [Camps and Jordon were obviously off eating face somewhere] and Ollie came over to where I was sitting on a swing. He tried to talk about what happened last week but I told him i didn't want it to ruin the night, and it turned into a bit of an argument, and I got a bit upset. I just really didn't want to talk about it right then, but Ollie said we had no choice, and that I had to decide whether we were going to stay friends, before he went back to Manchester tomorrow. I told him it wasn't fair for him to force that decision on me, when it was him who ruined everything and was a complete awful bastard to me. So then we started arguing again before I saw Josh coming over, and Ollie stormed off. Josh didn't pry he just wanted to know if I was all right, which was really nice of him. I just said we weren't doing too well lately, and Josh said he thinks Ollie's always had a little crush on me. We kind of looked at each other for a while as if to say if anything happens between us it's probably going to hurt him. But nothing is going to happen.
Josh pushed me on the swing for a bit and he made me laugh, we had a really really great night, and I got him a birthday card and Superdry polo shirt, thought it was his kind of thing. He really liked it, wouldn't stop going on about it, which made me smile. We went up to his room to hang out for a bit away from Ollie and everyone, and I must have fallen asleep cos I woke up a few hours later and was on Josh's bed with a blanket over me. He was asleep propped up in a chair in the corner of the room, looking a bit uncomfortable but I didn't want to wake him. His covers smelt all manly like him and ahhh it was a lovely night. Really great.
I'm finally back home and off to start lectures, a bit apprehensive of bumping into anyone but I'm sure I'll be fine!
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