THE GOSSIP
LILLY JENSONMONDAY, 20TH OCTOBER 200823:11LILLY ON ... BEING BORINGAll the girls are dressed up, very drunk and ready to go out for the student night but I'm just not up for it tonight. I'm in my jamas in bed with my laptop and Pretty in Pink to watch. I just feel so fed up from Saturday and if I bump into anyone I know I'll get upset.
Rebecca's gone home and I miss her already even though she annoys me sometimes. When Ollie left earlier I got a bit mad with her and yelled at her about bringing him around, and she got quite upset and said she thought we were best friends, and pointed out that we had been since we were babies. I just nodded; I couldn't bring myself to tell her what happened, and she's 17 she can make up her own mind about what she does and who she sees, I just told her to be careful. But secretly inside if he tries to even touch her again I'm going to make his life not worth living. Imagine what he can do to a naive 17 year old? And that sounds awful because I really do love him dearly but I don't know him any more, and that's the saddest part. I could forgive him tomorrow if there was a glimpse of my old Ollie in his eyes but there's not. He's changed and I don't know what's wrong with him but I've got a feeling that things can't get back to normal.
Come to think of it, I'm quite lonely. I'm sick of the arguing and sick of falling out with people, but I don't know when it's going to end.
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