THE GOSSIP
LILLY JENSONTUESDAY, 7TH OCTOBER 200808:53LJ ON ... TRYING TO STAY SANEBeen staying with Corey since the party, he's been looking after me bless him. I haven't seen him for ages, it was nice to be able to catch up and have someone to talk to when I needed it. Me and my brother are really close, probably closer than me and Bec, and he's looked out for me ever since I could remember. He was really nice about the whole Josh thing, although he reckons he's a good guy and just got caught up in everything. Corey knows how manipulative Summer can be, and said Josh was probably all innocent in it. I tried to explain that it's not innocent to take someone on a string of dates at the same time as shagging her worst enemy, but Corey said that if Summer pounced on him he probably wouldn't shake her off (eww.)
And then he said that I should probably return to uni and try to carry on with things as normal as possible. So here I am. He's picking me up again tonight after lectures, and he made me promise that I will go to them. I don't really want to go to class with Camps, and I'm praying I don't bump into Josh, because I feel I'm not ready to talk to them yet, but i've only got 2 lectures and I can easily slip in and sit right at the back by myself.
I still feel so awful about what Josh and Summer did to me, I get upset whenever I think about the dates we went on. And I don't know why, because I shouldn't have been looking into it so much in the first place. I should have known that Summer would use it to get back at me. I don't even know why I didn't really consider it; just plain stupid really.
If I bump into anyone today I'm going to scream. And then probably run.
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