LILLY JENSON
FRIDAY, 24TH OCTOBER 2008
08:28
LJ ON ... UPSETTING PEOPLE
I hate the way me and Josh never run smoothly. One of us always does something to upset the other and that's why we're not working out. Last night I went out with Eoghain and he was really nice and just friendly, but after a few drinks he told me how much he liked me, and even though I told him I was a bit relunctant, he kept taking my hand etc and telling me how pretty I was. Which was totally flattering, but all I could think about was Josh.
He walked me home quite early because I was really tired and when we got to the gates he tried to kiss me. To be honest I was a bit tempted and I did kiss him back for a split second before I saw someone standing in front of us and it was Josh, stood holding a bouquet of flowers. When he looked at me his eyes were so hurt, and I felt so guilty. I asked him what he was doing here and he said he came to apologise about the other night. I swear if I hadn't made the decision to stay away I would have jumped into his arms right there and then. But he probably wouldn't have let me, because he was really upset with what he saw and he gave me the flowers before saying he would leave us to it... and then he walked away.
I'm gutted that I've upset him and I'm mad that this always happens. I really wish everything wasn't so complicated, but if it is this complicated then maybe it's not meant to be?
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