THE GOSSIP
LILLY JENSONFRIDAY, 3RD OCTOBER 200817:31"LILLY ON ... HAPPINESS"I bumped into Josh this afternoon outside the union, he was with his mates and I was with Camps. Everything was fine, but he seemed a bit quiet and withdrawn, and looked as though something was bothering him. He walked me to class so that we could have a talk just between ourselves, but he told me everything was fine and he just wasn't feeling too good. But he said that we're still on for dinner tonight, and I'm really looking forward to it. I was too shy to kiss him goodbye, and things were awkward for almost a second, but he kissed me on my cheek and gave me one of his gorgeous smiles before telling me he'll pick me up in the car at eight. Eee!
Okay so Camps told me last night that Ollie's planned a house-warming party for tomorrow night. I really, really don't want to go. Even though I've had such a good week, I can't stop thinking about Ollie and what happened between us. And now that things are happening (kind of) with me and Josh, I've got a feeling things are going to get really complicated. I don't think anyone else knows about it, but if Summer finds out she is going to have a field day, and I can't have that. So we need to go along tomorrow and be totally normal, which is going to be hard, because Ollie really hurt me and screwed me over and I can't stand facing him. I miss him so much and wish things could go back to normal but I just don't think it's possible.
We can't stay over so I'm going to see if Camps and Jordon want to book a hotel with me, and I was going to ask Josh as well although it does sound a bit wrong doesn't it?!
I walked past Summer and her clan today outside campus, and she had the smuggest smile on her face. I don't know what she's got to be so happy about??
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